Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

@spacewastrel@yiff.life I hate our allies so fucking much these days. >_______< I just saw a bunch of people dragging someone for saying doxxing someone for daily harassment could have, you know, bad unintended consequences. There is something absolutely rotten on our side of the political spectrum and I wish I had anywhere whatsoever to flee to.

@Momentrabbit Hun, it's not gonna be safe until (a) Trump is out of office (b) I don't see at least one leftist per day on an identity-based bigotry crusade that they're persuaded isn't really bigotry because They're Clearly The Good Guys.

It's gonna be a while. I'll send some snacks.

@hummingrain Hahahaha no. Not without armies of skellingtons and golems to back me up. :)

It's always good to be reminded there are still people cheering for me. Thanks everybody, I'm more or less over the ragedump. <3

Haha, wow. I really needed to spend a few hours as a necromancer. (Kremit's Tale; neat, very difficult and thoughtful puzzle-tile game.)

I feel so much better now. Sometimes ya just need to find refuge in a little harmless villainy, you know?

Now I just need to figure out of I won because I'm awesome or I won because the Necrodude is way overpowered. I'm leaning towards option two...

@matias93 ...

OK, NOW my day is made. <3

Thank you so much. I really needed to hear that from someone I'm not super-close with and can thereby trust that they're not just being nice to me. :)

It'll probably be easier to understand after our first edit pass! We have something like eight pages of clarifications to add. :)

Thank you again for the support!

I'm really trying to be positive in the face of everything and not further indulge the pulsating vein of loathing that's been running through me all day, so... uh...

Stuffed animals? Are good? Also rainbows? And I still like cake. I had some pizza and a salad. It was good. It had fruit in it. Fruit is good.

I'm really doing the best I can here, folks.

No, seriously, a friend said nice things about Parallax today and that actually made my freakin' day. Also, I've been dipping into Istanbul Feral Cat Youtube and it's actually pretty heartwarming.

Oh! And Tuca and Bertie got a second season! That does actually feel like a freakin' miracle. And dragons. Dragons are very good.

And I have a recipe for Singaporean Marmite Chicken. And I can take comfort in the fact that 90% of the people who annoyed me today would be ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTED by it. So I can kinda hate them vicariously through crispy pan-fried chicken.

So I got that goin' for me which is nice. And I had a fresh beignet yesterday! And the lumpy thing on my back finally went away.

I can't keep this up. Every time I get my head above the surface I get pulled back down. I kinda hate myself a lot these days. I'm OK. I just don't care much for my own company right now.

@001zlnv le deux

Peggy coined the term "pettin' axe" today while playing Bloodborne up against Vicar Amelia and I... I... now I want a pettin' axe. n.n;;

Shadow is mewing pitifully out on our porch. I checked on her, and apparently she wants to get inside... next door. There is not a thing I can do to help you, darlin'. ;__;

@Balinares *hug* Yeah. Definitely. Two in fact. *hug* This is at LEAST as therapeutic for me as it is for you.

@hystericempress Yeah. *hug* Yeah.

@001zlnv This is the only good political idea I have heard all day. <3

Did I mention the "don't @ me" thing absolutely infuriates me? It's social media. If you're talking in public, people will talk back. There are plenty of ways to make your conversations private. Don't tell me you have to right to make our communications one-way; the best way to not get @'d is to not lecture the world from your pulpit in the first place.

I'll just reply to them with "Ewch yn ôl i'ch fferm gyfrifiadurol, dynol ffug! Yeah. I KNOW you know what I just said!" and refuse to explain further.

Surrealism is my last refuge.

@Balinares But... but... but that would mean carrying a point of queer dogma to a logical, charitable, and inclusive conclusion! YOU SPEAK MADNESS, DRAGON! :O

You know what? I'm done. It's 2020. Reality is optional; delusion is encouraged. I'm just gonna retreat into a conspiracy theory where all the really dumb bigoted queer puritan takes are the work of subversive foreign trollbots. Let's say... oh... Welsh ones. Why the fuck not. 🤷​

Aaaaand the closest thing there were to "good guys" on this thread seem to have come to an agreement that it's all the white people's fault.

Even though they're white. And I can almost even see where they're coming from, because the people who are griping seem to have very little notion of what actual suffering and social stigma are like.

But... given that the whole conversation was about NOT MAKING SWEEPING GENERALIZATIONS ABOUT PEOPLE BECAUSE OF A SUPERFICIAL TRAIT, could we not have maybe given this a miss just this once?

Now there's Discourse on Birdhell about how terrible crossdressers are because every single one of them just recapitulates feminine stereotypes "to degrade women" and they're all "just doing it for the attention" and these people are not even recognizing that these are all classic TERF lines EVEN AFTER IT'S BEEN POINTED OUT TO THEM and I swear to god my claws sing to be doused in Queer Puritan blood.

It's gotten bad enough that the poor transwoman who dared say "gee, maybe they're human beings who have a right to explore gender" is being told she should kill herself.

I have been trying SO FUCKING HARD to be less nasty online but they keep reeling me back in and there is gonna be extreme rhetorical violence in a moment here. If you hear about a distemper outbreak on Twitter tomorrow, yeah... my bad.

I'm forced to admit I do rather *like* a large amount of things humans do. Maybe it's time to take my own advice and refine the targets of my hatred.

I hate people---and yes, reluctantly, I am people--- embracing known cognitive glitches and finding excuses to nurture them rather than learn.

I hate social organizations like religions and corporations that seem to inevitably replace their initial purpose and morality with the need to grow and self-perpetuate indefinitely for its own sake.

I hate sociopaths, narcissists, and exploiters coming along to subvert any Nice Thing that we can have into something that fundamentally serves their malign psychological needs.

I hate social orders---like patriarchal masculinity AND queer orthodoxy---that put symbolic purity ahead of individual personal happiness, dignity, and most of all, practicality.

I hate economic systems that trap people in cycles of useless labor and consumerism instead of actually meeting basic human needs and giving people the freedom to become the kidn of educated, sophisticated thinkers we need to maintain a free society.

When I say "scrap it all, damn us to Hell, and hand it over to the raccoons and crows," I guess that's what I really mean. When you get right down to it, humans are just the hosts for these things..

And yeah. Setting the quarantine house on fire is a solution of sorts. I think there IS a time and place where The Thing has pretty much won and "nuke it from orbit" is the only solution.

But that's not the Good End, and I am forced to admit that as bleak as it seems sometimes, there is absolutely no reason we can't still get the Good End.

OK, there are a lot of reasons to think we can't actually. >___< I'm sorry. I don't think it's LIKELY. I can't pretend otherwise, and it's very frustrating to see people in denial about the possibility that we are not at all unlikely to fail and die. I think some of my morbidity and misanthropy is an attempt to deal with that.

But I also have to concede that we still CAN win, and there's absolutely no reason to give up before we've really tried. It's going to be extremely difficult, because it will involve us purging our society of bad human cognitive tendencies that have, if anything, only gotten MUCH WORSE recently.

But we've done it before. We'd need a rational & spiritual technology like nothing we've ever seen. I used to get flashes of it back in my stoner days; now, it seems so hazy I can't figure out how to talk about it. But I think it's out there.

There is one last frontier and it's not space; it's our fucked-up little brains. If we can go in there and figure out a technology for what people call "wisdom"... some kind of real memetic and ethical immune system... we might actually be OK.

I'm still gonna be nice to the raccoons and crows just in case though. 🤷​