Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

Called the Dallas PD to register my outrage about the, let's face it, flat-out murder of a 100% innocent black man in his own apartment.

Main PD is not answering their phones. Repeat: the central PD office of a major city is not answering their phones at 1 in the afternoon. Because, I presume, they're pissy about all the criticism. (Their other reviews on Google Maps indicate this is pretty typical behavior for 'em.)

But that's not all...

by way of penance for recent eeyoring <3

The two friendships that initially lured me here kinda exploded, messily. And I'll be honest... I needed more support and more time out than I actually got. That's probably 99.9% my own fault, and I'm owning that. I let shit get to me, and the guilt from that explosion is still haunting me daily.

THAT'S what I'm fleeing from, not you. I want to see you in my remaining months. I want to stay in touch once I'm gone.

More to come.

Hey, quick note.

PLEASE don't interpret my mixed feelings about heading towards NOLA as any lack of affection for the people I have here. About 90% of that is my depression and my scars from the past year telling me nobody here actually wanted me anyhow... and if they do, I'll just fuck it up anyhow. I only believe that when I'm in the depths. I treasure the people I'm going to have to leave behind--- that's the whole PROBLEM. :)

Dawn just gave me a relentlessly positive and sunny reading. Something DEFINITELY must be wrong on a deep cosmic level. :)

Although, to be fair, this was Dawn Sr. (the early handmade edition of the Silicon Dawn, who lacks the Void Court and most of the other "novelty" cards). I've always found her to be rather more cheerful than Dawn Jr. (the full Lo Scarabeo edition). Still.

"Loud growling noises could be heard through the door of the apartment, causing the officer to avoid entering. Another police officer was sent to the roof, from which he abseiled himself on a rope sling to view through the apartment’s windows. Ming attempted to attack the officer, frightening him, and nearly broke through the window."

See? A soldier, a gangster, AND a friend to the people. Ming, you are one of the greatest of all time.

Holy shit. One of the great Martian Tiger Culture Heroes, Ming of Harlem, lives about 20-25 minutes away from my parents' house, in Berlin Center, OH.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ming_of_Harlem

I wonder if I can talk my mom into a road trip. I'd love to pay him my respects and ask for counsel. I feel like I've been vicious lately, but I could be more vicious.

feeling like the social equivalent of someone who locked herself out on the porch during her own party, and couldn't figure out how to get back in, or be heard asking for help over the music, until everyone had gone home.

or worse, who threw a rock at the front window just to try to get *anyone's* attention, hit a friend in the head, and couldn't get her to believe it was an accident.

i look forward to nola, in a way not dissimilar to how i sometimes look forward to death.

I wonder how Mr. Proud Centrist feels about the whole Nestle's slavery thing?

"I don't get why these extremist loons are trying to make a big deal out of this. We're all just trying to get along in this big crazy world-- you, me, Nestle, Ghanaian forced-laborers..."

"...and I did a lot of grandstanding on social media about how brave I am for all the things I consume. I mentioned a lot of brand names, never left my comfort zone by talking to anyone TOO different from me, and didn't bring my country's blatantly obvious political crisis into it at all. Let me tell you, I have never felt more like an American."

#TheLukewarmHeroCentristsDeserve

The far-left folks who have been on this tirade COULD have used it for a constructive message like "See, this is why it's so important for our society to prioritize mental health."

They could have acknowledged there was something wrong with Trump on a psychological level, and taken the initiative to say, "This man is nothing like a treated individual who actually OWNS their disorder."

Nope, they just got mad and demanded we sweep the whole issue under the carpet. Fuck 'em all.

I can _sort_ of sympathize with people's worries that this would lead to more stigma against people with psych issues in general.

But again... I've never heard anyone say they'd have trouble with a leader having a _treated_ personality disorder, and I think it's been pretty fucking obvious since square one that that did NOT describe Trump in the least.

Yes. For fuck's sake. Having a disorder which makes you impervious to others' needs IS a reason you should not be a leader.

Now I want to smack everyone who said we couldn't specuate about Trump's sanity because it was "ableist."

It's not ableist to tell a myopic jet pilot "you should really get your eye prescription updated," and it's not ableist to tell a narcissistic leader "you really need to get your ass into therapy."

Fighting ableism isn't about pretending everyone is OK Fine, it's about making sure everyone gets the healthiest outcome without UNWARRANTED prejudice.

http://www.nydailynews.com/news/politics/ny-pol-president-trump-psychiatrist-leakers-list-20180906-story.html

NE Ohio: an artist's conception

#TotalPerspectiveVortex
#helpme

I don't think this is *actually* a productive notion, but lord knows it soothes my weary soul. And the idea of shamelessly putting them through exactly the same kind of gaslighting, demonization, and cheap sophistry they've put us through... it really panders to some cruel and thoroughly exhausted part of me.

We've got a factoid. We've got a motive. We've got no reason for mercy anymore. I'm SO TEMPTED to just run with it and have a little fun.

So it looks like they're blaming "human involvement" for the latest round of California wildfires. And don't I remember the _last_ guy caught up in this being a right-wing conspiracy theorist?

I don't seriously advocate this, but... hell, wanna just take after the modern GOP, create our own reality, and pass it around as a "known fact" that the far-right set all the California fires in an attempt to economically sabotage a liberal part of the country?

I have eaten 22 pieces of Italian nougat today. Eight of them were coated in lemon white chocolate.

So where's *my* op-ed in the Times, huh?!

#tigerlogic

I feel I have been completely vindicated in my November '16 prediction that Trump would be the presidential equivalent of "Snakes On A Plane"-- funny (to some) on paper, tedious and intelligence-offending (to all) in practice.

My Mom made Italian wedding soup that's so good, I think I gained temporary Papal powers just by ingesting it.

I think I'm just gonna let them pass quietly. That is NOT a burden anybody wants these days. >_>;;

In a good mood except for being rather bored, which makes me wonder if somehow I didn't end up in the wrong Ohio. They sure LOOK like my parents... I haven't checked for button eyes yet.

Also, my mom only cooked four things in anticipation of my arrival. That worries me too.