Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

Yeah, definitely been feeling a shy streak. There's a lot of emotional stuff around my place in the community that I just don't want to deal with.

I'm doing fine, having a great time with Peg and getting a lot done. I'm just not feeling much motivated to get out and seek other company.

Miss y'all, but there's a lot of newfound social anxiety in the way, plus I'm kind of enjoying the quiet time.

Apologies if I'm slow to see you. I'll come back out sometime, I swear. <3

WARNING:

ZEBRATRON ICON NOT TO SCALE

ACTUAL PROPORTIONS DEPICTED BELOW https://awoo.space/media/EZ6MCJLkEbUZg9ySr28

The Sacred Ur-Plush Ancestors: https://awoo.space/media/8eDbtvkcw8HVhdyz46c

#winnie #tigger #piglet #roo #tiggeragain #thatotherguy #moretigger

Especially not with all those radiant influences there like the Sun and Moon. I've gained a bit of cynicism about friendship in general, hence that inconstant and inscrutable Moon in there, but the Sun of abundant warm social connections is still there. I CAN leave my little monastic cave and have a walk in the sun this time around. But the High Priest is perfectly content without you as well, and has so much to do to put that cave in order, even if he might go a bit mad(der) in the process...

I'm also intrigued by one theme of the above reading: it contains a miniature Fool's Journey, especially given more or less the same character (IIRC) appears on Fool, Hermit, and Universe. But it starts at the END, and proceeds around the loop.

I choose to take that as "you have started a New Game Plus." This game starts with me being knocked back from a position of complacent self-confidence in a social world I helped create, to one of embarrassment and humility. But that's NOT a bad start.

Dawn Sr's advice for this morning:

Situation: Sun
Influence: 9 Swords

Past: Universe
Present: Fool
Future: Queen of Pentacles
Outcome: 7 Cups

Self: High Priest
Others: Moon
Emotions: Ace of Cups
Summary: Hermit

"Abundance comes, even after a shocking upheaval from old friends. You have been given so much, and squandered it stumbling around; thank you, this was exactly our plan. You will always be imbalanced and maddened; find a quiet place far away from others and apply it to our advantage."

I wouldn't say I'm having a fantastic or productive day, exactly. But a variety of little events have me feeling really _urbane_, and that's a good feeling. I think I'm gonna walk about 200 yards and get myself an organic cherry-almond smoothie, or maybe some ube ice cream. XD

and of course rabbit sorceress

and i sincerely regret any trouble i caused by scaring all those princesses

tonight's approximate self-image: ice king

thank god dragon marceline is around to take care of me

i see strange things in the frost sometimes

*picks up Gunther and absent-mindedly chews on him*

oh god my poor coworkers are dealing with irish orthography without adult supervision, my poor babies are like lambs to the slaughter

#18letterdiphthongs #consistingmostlyofconsonants

It just makes me so happy that I'm apparently descended from east Ohio bootleggers. Bootleggers, especially skulky non-violent ones like my Aunt Rose, did the work of the Lord as far as I'm concerned.

I almost wish sometimes I could get in on some similarly noble profession today, but as my mom thoughtfully pointed out, those industries tend to be *rather* well-saturated by people who do not take kindly to competition.

Oh my god. Work is paying me to look at pornography tonight.

THIS IS BEEF. Ohmi beef, some of the rarest and priciest in the world. Look at that marbling. Just look. https://awoo.space/media/pV02uGrYj701Q25MIT8

Work has become interesting training for using gender-neutral pronouns as a matter of habit. For our evaulations, I have a list of my coworkers' usernames and no other information about them.

Valis will only stop using the singular "they" if you pry it out of their cold, dead hooves, motherfuckers. <3

#moodsnapshot: "Black Monday" by the Drinking Flowers. Which is pretty bad, since it's Wednesday.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NowksB-J9Us

I'm okay, Peg and I are doing really great so far as far as I can tell--just concerned for friends, concerned for my country, and so fucking tired of inhabiting a human brain on this absurd little planet.

Haha, am doing etymological sorcery at work, to prove the existence of a Russian rail station whose name turned out to just mean "rail station," and I think I have my confidence back. XD