Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

"Some people might have made mistakes. They may have arrived at an appearance that bears no relationship to them."

"They may have picked an ideal appearance based on some childish whim, or momentary impulse. Some may have gotten half-way there, and then changed their minds."

"He wonders if he too might have made a similar mistake."

--Talking Heads, "Seen and Not Seen"

#dysphoria #canofworms #selfhate #regret #pathos #bojackyoureapieceofshit

Sitting here bolt-upright in bed, jetlagged and angry at nothing in particular, ruminating over all this year's-- and this lifetime's-- colossal failures.

I keep getting these flashes of "never want to see any of you again," which is weird, because I love you all. I think it's some kind of displacement of "I wish I could never see me again."

I don't want to die. I just want to retire and let a new actor take over in my place. Or maybe get a bridge dropped on me and return as my own twin.

"Kill them all. Leave their housekeys and silverware in the dumpster outside." -- Don Racconelli

#moodsnapshot

https://awoo.space/media/HnnW81Y2AeAVz7Vs9KM

#moodsnapshot https://awoo.space/media/dLFkXtMJrOAQ2M1zN08

For all the leftist barnstorming I've done on Reddit, my single highest-rated comment today is me insisting that dogs are Pokemon of "type: Friend."

This feels like an important lesson somehow.

Death is pretty vulgar. I could never become a killer, except maybe for an exceptionally valid political cause, because after my dad died I made an explicit philosophical point, for my own sanity, of becoming really bored with death.

Turning someone totally alien and incomprehensible, on the other hand... corrosive to whatever stifling social circumstances forced the misery of a human superego onto them...

Never be misled. The original lavavixen Kincaid was a supervillain.

I bear more of a resemblance to Vaughan, the "nightmare angel of the expressway" from J.G. Ballard's _Crash_, than I really wanted to confront.

The main difference is that he's obsessed with orchestrating death, that moment where a live body spatters across a dashboard in a pseudo-erotic tableaux of chaos...

And I'm obsessed with the moment where someone you love becomes so alien and transfigured, you can't feel their love again unless YOU cross that same transformative boundary.

"What should young people do with their lives today? Many things, obviously. But the most daring thing is to create stable communities in which the terrible disease of loneliness can be cured." - Kurt Vonnegut

I disagreed with Uncle Kurt on a lot of things, but I just can not quote that often enough.

JORT = 0.2 🅱️

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

(You are each alloted 10 🅱️'s per diem. The moment you hit 11 on any given day, our acquaintance is at an end. ;) )

"The answer to bad porn is not no porn, it's good porn." -- Annie Sprinkle

Extrapolate this to things other than porn, and the advanced student can figure out about 90% of my remaining issues with the Millennial Left on their own. Y'all sure like to throw out old bathtubs without asking what that crying sound is.

Hmm.

Given the recent snark level of my (sigh) toots here, I should probably warn y'all... I am normally a pretty heavy cannabis user, and since I'm stuck in Ohio for 10 days, I'm undergoing a forced tolerance break.

I may not exactly be a big stripey feedbag full of gay purple sunshine for the next week and a half. Your forbearance is appreciated in advance.

I promise to only kill things I intend to eat. *bears blood-stained zebra fangs in a huge unsteady grin* <3

🅱️​ is for "blocked."

At this point, the far-right is so credulous, it shames the left. We should have exploited this weakness MUCH more ruthlessly. We have no excuse at this point not to have every single one of them running in fear from our rallies, because we've conned them into thinking we know Word Of Power: Death.

I'll save the various credulities of the far left for another post and, sorry kids, a more diverse intellectual environment. Let's just say I love & support you but don't trust you.

Of course, if you actually SUCCEED in your mission, without all our ethics being lost in the usual Red Queen's Race of exploitation, fanaticism and semantically easy answers... our finished FALGSC society should be fundamentally indistinguishable from the Fairie Veil anyhow, right down to being totally, balefully incomprehensible to anyone who looks at it with mere mortal eyes.

Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to recapitulate the storyline of the Pied Piper of Hamelin as queer transhumanist fiction, with Fully Automated Gay Luxury Space Communism in place of the Faerie Veil.

This _includes_ the threat of inflicting bizarre, permanent transformations on interlopers, rather than stoop to mere vulgar murder. As revenge for stealing our economy, we turn their children into queer leftist space monsters.

For the record:

I believe unchecked, unowned, unrecognized cognitive dissonance is bad.

I also believe that dabbling in paradox, magical thinking, and "entertaining two contrary ideas at the same time" is healthy, even vital for a truly examined life -- as a deliberate, knowing act that accepts the fundamental slipperiness of all received truth, i.e. ALL TRUTH.

Objections will be genially tolerated but not acknowledged. ^_^

Considering a parody of Jojo's Bizarre Adventure where all the stands are inspired by shitty, creepy 1970's AM radio, and their hosts are all wobbly Travis Bickle-y mall ninja types who taunt each other over a magic CB.

"Sad Eyes." "Seasons in the Sun." "Lonely Boy." "Cat in the Cradle." "Hey 19." "Chevy Van." "Afternoon Delight." "Muskrat Love." "Superstar." "Rosanna." "Summer Breeze." "Mandy."

No powers whatsoever except for wistful sighs, perfect hair, and just generally being Smooth.

Sapience, as we know it and have been handed it, is overrated and was probably a tremendous mistake The faster we get over our humanist baggage about creating a good replacement for it, one that still lets us guarantee our safety and autonomy without having to DWELL UPON IT all the time, the happier, longer-lived, and more productive we'll all be.

Most of the thinking humans do is counterproductive.

IT HAS BEEN [0][0][0] DAYS SINCE ZEBRATRON DELIBERATELY PICKED A FIGHT WITH A TRUMP SUPPORTER PURELY AS A RECEPTACLE FOR THEIR OWN INCREASING ANGER AND ENNUI

(We'd gotten it up to about 20 or 30, since leaving Birdsite. But some kid was claiming Antifa crashed that train in Pierce County and citing Prison Planet as "evidence," so... c'est la guerre, motherfucker.)