Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

Lordy.

Canonically, my changeling OC Schadenfreude has broodmates named for other "words Germans have for that." Ichschmerz, the witchfinder. Putzfimmel, the spy-maid. Fernweh, the wicked ranger. Kummerspeck, the feeder slut.

I think I've got a new one, one that suits me even better than Schadi, a tinkerer:

https://www.straight.com/blogra/word-day-schlimmbesserung

Yeah, that's my cutie mark, all right: a delicate clockwork animal exploded across the floor, next to a mallet snapped in half out of frustration.

*ten hours of indignant rawring, shaking random things in her jowls, and rending up your furniture something fierce*

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dSQYzLbTCLA #moodsnapshot #drdemento #ComedyMusic #aliens #volunteerabductee

(This one's worth it, ludicrously cheerful old folk song from the late great Dan Hicks...)

@green Still up for lunch today? When would you like to meet up? (Tengu is open from 11:30 to 2.)

Okay, shot in the dark here, but this is probably the right crowd.

When I was a teenager, I had a book about Magic Squares. I don't remember much about it... but it had some weird genetic algorithm for "breeding" new generations of magic squares from other squares, illustrated with these crazy almost occult-looking diagrams. The math was solid, it was all just highly eccentric, including giving all the generations women's names.

That's all I remember.

Anyone seen anything like this?

#moodsnapshot #madlad #fightthepower #birdworldanarchist

https://awoo.space/media/HkkbCwWpm7sfxCGapTw

This is the third time during work today that I've typed "restaurant" instead of "research."

I think it's time to order some food.

And one of the most frustrating things on my to-do list (working out some tax forms) magically disappears in a puff of bureaucracy!

Sorry about the breakdown earlier. You know how it is. It's always in the background, but not always *bad*. It comes to the surface when my shields break down.

I'm mostly okay, and don't intend to let go of anyone here, even if I move. I'm mostly just feeling skittish. I could probably use some Large Group Social Activity soon, but maybe not quite yet.

#MoodSnapshotExtravaganza

Mono Puff, "Unsupervised, I Hit My Head": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYMtLJa_plc

Frank Zappa, "Oh No":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nrxx72AK0ZU

Primitive Radio Gods, "Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth...":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4XJxFAoiWSY

Dinosaur Jr., "Get Me":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybExfDHg1i0

Carole King, "Tapestry":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vT6mw4GaPYQ

Garcia & Grisman, "The Ballad of Frankie Lee and Judas Priest":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FbpoVOXteuw

I even feel like I should apologize for this. -_-

At this point, it really feels like the book is about to close on the postfurry chapter of my life. I've got Peg, Parallax, and the hope of a new life in LA once we finally get off our asses and move. I'll always love the people I met in this community, even the ones I fell out with, and I won't turn my back on the ones who will still have me.

I'm just so tired and disillusioned. If this really were a TV series, I'd be tempted to just skip this season and see what's happening in a year.

In summary, the management has officially degraded our mood to RAWRCON 3. Do not pet tiger without protective Kevlar gear. Do not look tiger in the eye. Do not make loud noises at tiger. Do not read tiger's embarrassing porn over tiger's shoulder (AHEM @anthracite <3 ). And please, for the love of gods, don't tell tiger everything is going to be okay. The tiger will not attack you, but neither will they believe you. Please leave tiger under the couch unless you have food or toys. 😿​

I'm trying so hard to be good. I'm trying so hard to keep a positive angle on things, and get on with my life in a way that brings good things for everybody. I'm trying so hard not to beat myself up to no good purpose, or ruminate on everything both sides may have done wrong.

I'm failing at all of the above. It's not helping that I've lost my main venue for contact with people I thought I still had a chance to be close to. Now I'm not even sure meeting me isn't just a huge burden on em.

Social media broke, two of my closest friendships broke (I *still* don't quite understand how), my country broke, all progress I made on being calmer broke, my fantasy life broke, my RP outlets broke, and my ability to trust other people, or trust myself around them when stressed, is breaking fast.

The common element in this: my faith broke. In myself and in a whole lot of other sources of security & self-love. "Time heals all" is not comforting when the hours, let alone days, drag so.

Complete emotional logjam today. Feels like everything's still in ruins, and the only honorable thing to do is just walk away--- not only from the actual wreckage, but the whole settlement around it.

Everything collapsed so fast in the last year, and suddenly my life feels very small and contained. Suddenly I've gone from an ensemble cast where I felt forgotten all the time, to a two-person sketch comedy where I'm always on camera, even when I don't want to be.

I'm still just reeling.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDoCJWfnIIw

#moodsnapshot #nostalgia #comedymusic #drdemento #doom

(cw: doom)

(doooooooom)

You speak of this "Fully Automated Luxury Gay Space Communism." But have you ever confronted yourself with what it would really look like? Well, pay attention, youth of today!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pJ4gH86DKPo&feature=youtu.be

NOT SO PRETTY, IS IT? THINK ABOUT IT.

PROTIP: If you're going to end your film with the hero turning to the camera and lecturing the audience, "Well, what have YOU done lately?!" make sure the obvious answer isn't "well, when am I gonna get magical white male superpowers like you, you privileged schmuck?"

It just makes me really proud that my epic space opera is turning out to be less and less influenced by Star Trek and Babylon 5 as we go... and more and more influenced by Inside No. 9, Fargo, and Black Mirror. Nobody in the Vek-10 or the Mixolyne Gathering is working as an agent of any military. ^_^

I think my number 1 goal is to make a comic like Steven Universe or Adventure Time that makes its fans laugh nervously about it 20 years from now and go, "Kids books. Heh." ^________^

@mawr There's another one. Brace yourself. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISTajZAmyKM #ClonkaMinkus #NeverForget

(Honestly, everything's fine except that (a) I am a tiger and nobody has recently acknowledged this (b) there is no fish immediately available (c) I haven't gotten to bat anything around for a few hours.)