Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

Mac's turn to add some stress to the week. Apparently the cardiologist is giving him 12-18 months, from the sounds of it. This as we are planning for some dental extractions, which involves anesthesia. Between the fact that he might never wake up due to his heart condition, the fact that he might just... stop... one day, and the cost esimate (~5k), this week sure knows how to keep me beaten down with stress and decisions.

AAAA IT'S SOOOO CUUUUUTEEE :D :D :D :D https://www.deviantart.com/jollyjack/art/The-Right-Clothes-784639588

https://www.firstpost.com/tech/science/scientist-finds-cure-for-hpv-infection-cervical-cancer-after-20-years-of-trying-6063031.html

And I guess I'm crashing out a little bit early again, but gosh, I love you all /so/ /much/. >.<

And no, I don't care that it's just a lump of aluminum and silicon, or slower than our old PCs. It's the realization of a dream and a hope we sent to the stars, and I want us to be the stupid idiots who do that again, and who love them, even if it makes no earthly sense we do.

The sheer amount of favorites and boosts this is getting is making me cry even harder, because I know all the of us are grieving for our friend.

Also, holy shit I did not expect writing that to bring out this many tears, but I am fucking sobbing now.

(I'm not crying my eyes out at Olive Garden. You're crying your eyes out at Olive Garden. ;_;)

I remember cheering the rovers on when they landed, and every day over 90 going, "Woo, an extra day!" Somewhere along the line I lost track of how many, and forgot that little rover just trucking away up there. Every time I remembered, though, it brought a little smile to my face, and I'll miss those, and it, terribly. I honestly wish they'd named it Dreams, because it exceeded ours by so, so many. I only hope I live to see the day we being it home. (Or the day we come home to it.)

Also awful suicidal thoughts, but those happen every time I'm tired. >.<

Wow, I am in a wacky mental space right now. Stupidly exhausted, caffeinated, hungry, anxious, and apparently responding to lewd posts I'm normally terrified of responding to. XD

Just an FYI for those worried, doing a bit better tonight. Slept most of the last 14 hours, but I think that's probably okay. Still tired, but should hopefully be able to function tomorrow. Thank you all for the hugs and support. <3