headspace depressiony things?
That feeling when one 'face' has been out and taking a lot of stress and shifting to another for a while actually feels like the former is taking a break and the latter is a less shitty mood.
Brains are weird and sometimes it feels like there's too many people in mine D:
headspace depressiony things?
@Draekos Oh, I didn't know you were multiple/semimultiple/whatever-the-word-is.
Brains are weird indeed! I hope your weirdness remains tolerable or even positive. It's so hard to find a place that honors warranty on brains.
headspace depressiony things?
@Felthry it's uhm... an odd mix of plural and just general 'creative person gets too into things'?
I often refer to which character is in the driver's seat? Partly because I enjoy just presenting differently, but I've noticed I actually act differently too. Not like, drastic swings or anything, just slighty different trains of thought. Is enjoyable.
headspace depressiony things?
headspace depressiony things?
@Oneironott @Draekos And yeah, I'd agree with that. Just... Not knowing which one it is can get to me, sometimes. I just... want to be comfortable playing as characters again. I haven't in ages, outside of a few very specific contexts.
I dunno. This stuff's hard.
headspace depressiony things?
@Oneironott @Draekos That's what I want to be able to do. To just accept that things are how they are, without worrying about what precisely how they are is.
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@Oneironott @Felthry I've noticed that myself. As well, as headmates/characters stepping over the lines. I guess some strike a cord just right and others fill narrative gaps.
headspace depressiony things?
@Draekos @Oneironott Part of my problem is that due to my history with such things, I'm not...entirely comfortable having headmates. And I worry about them stepping over the lines, as you put it. It may be an irrational fear, but it's one I have regardless.
My ideal situation, the one I'm trying to write into my brain, is one being with multiple 'presentations'. like, well, two frontends to a single backend I guess?
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@Oneironott @Draekos It would be really nice to figure this stuff out in such a way that I stop feeling all uncomfortable with the topic. Because it's not a negative or bad topic in any way and I want to stop being uncomfortable around multiple people just because I used to be multiple.
Maybe part of the problem I had was that I/we tried to push it further than it would go, tried to get greater separation than was possible and/or wise, and that kind of snapped back.
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@Draekos @Oneironott also thank you to both of you for listening and having valuable input. It's greatly appreciated.
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@Oneironott @Draekos Thank you. You are a good otterfriend. <3
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@Felthry @Draekos I guess it's like... If it's real okay. If it's 'play' than also okay that's cool too.