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Starting up the SaGa 2 remake on DS! One of my favorite games in the whole series, updated with a new look, better in-game information, and all-new features. I can't wait.
SaGa of Mana: https://tinyurl.com/SaGa-of-Mana
anarchy and democracy
Also, two points. A democratically held decision can and should be violently opposed from an anarchist perspective if it contradicts freedom of people, in spite of impossibility of forcing people into freedom. Oppressed must be violemtly defended. And all of this is hypothetical, because neither western liberal democratic states, nor authoritarian states are democratic. They lack work place and or political democracy at every level. They are symbolically democratic, and that's only national level and that's limited in options by non-democratic nature of other apects of life and geographiv levels, but also by state legality amd nature of party structure. So, this isn't democracy. But more democracy isn't alwaya good either. Worst dictators are elected by more democratic than usual election processes. Democracies that are accidentally formed have a tendency to relapse and most social structures are formed accidentally. And ideologically democratic groups tend to show chauvenistic tendencies out of sense of superiority. More democracy isn't exactly the solution.
anarchy and democracy
But having democracy at every aspect of life, economy etc included, would be closest to anarchy, without actually being anarchy. Because then you can technically vote any hierarchy into power.
Echoes of past drama
People still spread bullshit about how Vedia will always end up burning people, and I am just sitting here and saying "She's a wolf, if you play with wolves without any regard for their personal boundaries or respect for them, you will be bitten. If you treat them with respect for them and their boundaries, you will find a loyal friend instead."
I really don't get it, you abused her, gaslit her, and smeared her in the public forum, and yet you expect her to not be angry, you expect the rest of the Grimaude family not to bite back?
Recovering from AltFurry
This is all reminded me of the moment my internal struggle started to really shift away from AltFurry, when Foxler leaked the Xanadu back room chat in revenge for how he's been criticized for supporting Kero the Wolf.
They reacted with a lot of anger and gnashing of teeth and talks of revenge and doxing, and yes, while I do want to take Foxler down, it's not because he exposed me, but because of why, and how it almost sabotaged my efforts to work on myself. However, it did give me the kick in the pants I needed to knuckle down and double my efforts to work on bettering myself. I'd freely admit to saying those horrible things, and I am sorry. I am not proud of it, but the point is while they reacted by scattering like cockroaches in the light, I took responsibility and pledged to do better.
And here we are, over half a year later, and I've grown into a fully-fledged fash-basher fighting for the rights of the oppressed.
I *survived* the Seattle scene.
Fuck this bullshit.
This is how vulnerable victims are treated. There were vulnerable victims before me, there are after, and I see how they're handled.
I've seen the bullying.
This is why I hated school, goddamn.
Alice and Freya, got their accounts frozen.
Oh, we're the clique here, riiiiiiiiight. Narrative control tactics are obvious ffs.
Hazel got blocked from speaking up for me and revealing receipts in a discord chat she shared.
Willow got banned from the discord embassy, in spite of saying nothing there. She was the most hurt victim in all of this. Like, what the fuck?
How many more are they going to have to keep silent as they go on, I wonder? When I back off until they try to fuck over people I know again, because apparently they can't help themselves on that front, others are going to come forward as they're hurt.
Personal principles
I've said this once and I'll say it again; My reputation means nothing to me, nobody can ever control me by holding it over my head. I will do what I need to do, because I follow my heart and my soul, and I am willing to do what's right and just, no matter how much I will lose for it.
The truth and fighting for the meek and innocent from injustice are far more important than a little bit of social currency, or emotional hedonism. In a way, being miserable is something I am comfortable with being, because it means that I am giving something of myself for something much bigger and more important than myself. I'd rather suffer in pride than to enjoy easy easy ignorant bliss at the expense of those around me.
You know, trying to deplatform and silence me for defending my own family is a foul, dirty move. Not that it matters to the people responsible, but I may be developing shellshock from it.
Listen, I am not perfect, and I make mistakes constantly, but I welcome everyone to challenge me on my actions, and I promise you I won't paint you as a harasser for it. Unlike certain people, I am going to take measures to heal and recover from this developing PTSD, and my own other personal hangups.
Not only that, so is Valerie, whose only crime was to speak up for me and say that it sounded like they were trying to control information about me.
Funny that.
Non-binary transgender woman living in Belgium, head of the soundtrack collective Headache Central.