Usefulness.
Yesterday, I did a lot of house cleaning and other such, then relaxed with some videogames... but pretty much kept playing right into the evening. Despite the overall productivity, I was kind of disappointed in myself for all the "slacking off".
This morning, I thought, "Hey, I'm up, I'm awake, I feel decent, I'll go get breakfast and get some useful stuff done!"
...but really, I kinda just want to play videogames. *shrug*
Usefulness.
But in the meantime, I really just wanna keep banging my head against _20XX_ until I figure out how to play it worth a damn. Or I can keep getting lost in _Metroid: Rogue Dawn_ (a total conversion of _Metroid_) or the like.
Meanwhile, Hollow Knight languishes, despite being a more nourishing experience. See? I can't even choose what to play worth a damn!
Ah well. Such is the life of attention-span-related disability.
Usefulness.
@ElectricKeet It shouldn't need to be said, but really, let's face the truth: speaking as responsible, mature people, there are some VERY compelling video games out there these days. (nodnods)
Usefulness.
@Austin_Dern @Momentrabbit Fair enough! It just seemed like I did three times as much play as work, which is productive compared to my usual ration of... let's say twelve to one, just a loose figure there.
Also, I'm really glad _Mini Metro_ turned out to be as good as it looked! Not my bag, but I'm kinda envious of those for whom it is. *grin*
Usefulness.
@Austin_Dern @Momentrabbit ...Hunh. You make an excellent point. This wouldn't be the first time I've fallen into a self-defeating perspective, and tht might shift things enough to help....
Usefulness.
@Momentrabbit This is true!
_20XX_ is a Rogue-like-like – no, not a rogue Like-like, my randomised _Link to the Past_ phase was a couple months back. It's like Mega Man X, X2, X3, and X4 glued together, soap opera plots replaced with anti-capitalist snark, and randomised power-up items and level layouts. It's actually really fun for me... except when it's really hard and I turn out to suck at playing it.
But I might get good at it before it gives me a repetitive stress injury!
Usefulness.
@ElectricKeet I have learned that on days when I am more functional I don't actually stop playing video games all the time. I just play video games better.
Usefulness.
Part of me wishes I were good enough at any aspect of videogames to meaningfully contribute by playing them, but the truth is, I'm not actually that much of a gamer.
Really, I think I'm just sort of flailing, looking for something that impassions me enough that I can let that passion sustain me during the hard-work parts of making it useful, and nothing does that for me right now, not in a sustainable way.
I'll just keep telling myself that it'll get better. I'll keep trying.