@Chip_Unicorn Thanks!
uspol in passing to larger mh stuff
In general I've been realizing that if I feel that profoundly negative almost assuredly there's something that reminds me of childhood.
I've been so pissed off at this Administration, I've felt really out of control, so completely caught up in anger. And sure enough, how they're sort of the same conservative Christians that dominated childhood, the idea that the authority and the good kids should be able to do anything and will be right and there's literally nothing you can do, that's childhood.
But then much earlier I'd realized that self-hate was trying to push down being angry into myself where nobody else could see it and punish me for it, and then this spiral of believing I'm a horrible person. So that white-hot anger, that's something I was feeling on a regular basis, directing inwards on a regular basis, for YEARS, for a fucking decade or more.
I'm uh. Amazed I'm still moving.
#subpost FREE RANGE CHICKENS! Th' story of the wahld and lawless days of th' great chicken drahves across the rollin' praries
* manly cowboy imagery intensifies *
@Bel_tamtu Gonna ditch it completely or just buzz it fairly short?
re: mh
@xinjinmeng Working and not sleeping while depressed isn't that much better. Hope this passes soon.
so I thought of a way to explain gender, unfortunately it's about Jewishness so it won't make as much sense to most people
okay, so my body reflects my ethnicity, very occasionally I get other MENA types thinking I'm one of theirs, sometimes Russians/Ukranians think I'm one of theirs.
Judaism like my physical traits comes with my ethnicity, and obviously I like some stereotypes that go with my ethnicity, but I like stuff from other groups a lot as well. And while it'd be easy to assume Judaism describes all my spirituality, it doesn't; ultimately my spirituality is rooted in where I feel comfortable.
#drawings today as works on progress. I feel like I’m doing better animals but it took a ton of time, humanoid figures took forever, etc. Also it turns out I just can’t figure out how to draw the weird over the back draw for shooting down.
Lots of random gunk, but some drawings and cooking talk too. Obsesses about DnD and related topics. Left-leaning/profoundly frustrated politics. Black lives matter; trans rights are human rights.
Occasionally NSFW art and discussion, please do follow if you're 18+.