Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Last week I started a batch of #drawings but took a break from finishing stuff, today I finished up three of ‘em, plus here’s Sunday’s unposted #drawing (there was a holiday).

Dear YouTube could you please stop serving me ads from the Young America Foundation or the Liebstandarte Adolph Hitler or whoever the hell these guys are? I just wanna listen to music, man.

Oh YEAH it’s Danny Elfman’s “Sad Goth Snow Dance!”! It’s on the soundtrack immediately after “The Part Where You Cry Uncontrollably”!

Muppet Van Helsing, in which Hugh Jackman is the only human (with horrifying CGI for his transformation into Animal). It’d have Beaker, Dr. Bunsen Honeydew, Miss Piggy and of course the Count von Count as Dracula.

Repost of Dr. Jessica Ware over on Bluesky;

Black in Natural History Museums week is coming up this October! “#BlackInNHMs Day 5 (Oct 19) will feature a panel about pathways to leadership & also strategies, challenges & opportunities for increasing Black participation in NHMs
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Oh yeah this werewolf themed Pathfinder module has varyingly believable pseudo German and pseudo Slavic names. The end of the adventure ends up in the town of FELDGRAU. This is ridiculous; since werewolves are traditionally more French than German, the town should of course be named Horizonbleu.

The problem with swapping from Tinariwen to Cirith Ungol is that now, instead of wanting to skip work to have an edible and sleep more, I would like to skip work to play D&D.

Revisiting my favorite Dead Can Dance album and it’s SO GOOD.

my girl, my girl, don't lie to me,
tell me where did you sleep last night?
in the pines, in the pines
where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through

her husband was a railroad man
an' about a mile from here
his HEAD was found in the drivin' wheel
but his body never was found

it can't be wishing-I-were-pretty-o'clock NOW, I'm not even officially off shift now and once I am I have stuff that needs doing

hot take "Wherever I May Roam" would be the best song on the black album if it *didn't* have a werewolf song.

And because it’s traditional while listening to Metallica;

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Okay the thing I was worried I’d fucked up, last week? I fucked up, last week BUT not entirely, the mistakes were a relatively quick fix and we’re good now.

tonight's edition of "I could fall asleep with the battle of Kursk next door/2-3 hours later I'm very awake"

Just wanted to post photos from today’s walk earlier, it was such a good day outside and I wanted to both share and remember.

I don’t need a used book on Maximinus Thrax. I don’t even LIKE Romans! Instead let’s buy this equivalently priced Pathfinder module which I probably will never run in any form but which has werewolves.

Guess that point about self hate merits clarification; all the above (lack of resources, trapped with seemingly unending tasks instead, crap self worth etc) can all FEEL like monolithic objective reality (low intensity, nigh constant frequency), but literally being TOLD that (relatively infrequent, high intensity) really cemented it, inside my mind.

This big nearly impossible to challenge circle of CPTSD/ADHD issues. LITERALLY impossible to challenge with no real down time and actual negatives or just hypervigilence. And, so incidental/artifactual (the big constant is everyone, me included, wanting what most conveniences US) the simplest (therefore ONLY when constantly strapped for emotional resources) pattern matching is self loathing I was literally taught (and also directed anger inwards, distracted, etc).

What a fucking mess!

This morning I’m re-re-realizing how interconnected childhood was. I never get enough time or money for MY stuff <=> endless uncompelling tasks, stuck in someone else’s places/schedules are more important <=> I fuck up and it’s this horrible thing to be punished <=> needing to focus intensely on tasks or punishment keeps me from thinking of a long term <=> officially good people get time and money/support to do their stuff <=> endless tasks with infrequent/arbitrary/short term if any reward <=>

I was there with my feet nailed down
and my head moving the speed of sound
in a dream I was caught in a maze
and I couldn't find my way back home
some were born to move mountains around and some to rot away in jail
I got an itch, and when I am scratchin'
everything can go to hell
and how far is halfway there?
I didn't see you on the trail
I've almost become good enough
should the good life be so hard won?
is this what our dreams have become?

sometimes when you shoot an arrow it can fly across the sky so proud
I would go all the way to the sun if I didn't have to come back down
[chorus]

you got a car and somewhere to sleep?
someone to love you, something to eat?
I would say you're doin' better than most
but maybe not as good as some
[chorus]