Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

AWIOCH! Bwood and souws for my word Awioch!

STOWMBWINGUH, aid me now! Know ye that I am Elwic! ELWIC!

what have I done

I've killed da wabbit

poor widdle bunny

poor widdle wabbit

you know what would make this Blue Oyster Cult song about Elric EVEN BETTER? Wee... I mean, playing D&D.

I'm about as sharp as a bowling ball
but they like me more than Charles de Gaulle
entrez-nous, it's very true,
the room temperature is higher than my IQ,
but they like me more than Gerard Diepardieu!

It would be a LOT better for everyone, me especially, if today was the day I encountered an 18 wheeler with shitty brakes or a blood clot loose in brain or heart. But we aren't that lucky and I'll try to push on as best possible.

Honestly I'm probably dealing with depression.

WARNING, JAMES HORNER MINOR KEY HORN LEITMOTIF ENGAGED. WARNING, JAMES HORNER MINOR KEY HORN LEITMOTIF ENGAGED. ALL PERSONNEL ARE ADVISED TO CLEAR THE AREA. WARNING.

Right now I have;

* job loss, cost of living etc telling me that my survival hinges on someone who doesn't and can't really know me deciding that I am a valuable, worthwhile person

* my connection to my parents which is rooted in being what they consider valuable and good, rather than any informed idea of who I actually am

* political stuff which heavily implies that all people like me are monsters playing on easy mode who should be exterminated without regret

All of these really call out my childhood thinking in which I wanted to be the best in every possible respect so I could be considered worthwhile enough to be safe, and where I felt goals would always be moved to ensure that I could be safely dismissed as worthless and bad and therefore punishable.

Something I never expected as part of gaining greater self worth; viewing myself as a stupid, inept, ugly, unlikable, worthless failure was a coping mechanism, not a fun one. As I step beyond it, I find myself running into places where it would help me cope, but no longer does. Even when I fall back into self hate, it's like how someone might wind up smoking, drinking or caffeine again after quitting, for a little bit rather than a complete return to old habits. Either way I still have to figure out how to confront what's getting to me.

All the DSA is good for is antisemitism and knuckling under to Russia and we already have Republicans for that, you’d be despicable if you weren’t so ineffective as to be useless, y’all ain’t the way of the future, fuck off!

adult films like DEBBIE DOES STUDENT'S T-TESTS

imagine, Alphonse Mucha's stash of furry porn

apparently we have found a 40,000 year old bone flute but nobody's told me whether if you blow it, you get promptly trampled by a GHOST MAMMOTH or GHOST MEGALOCEROS or something

I was gonna start a Rage Against the Machine tribute band, but I can't decide whether we should be Irritable About the Device or Pissed About the Contraption

come closer and see

see into the trees

find the girl if you can

come closer and see

see into the dark

just follow your eyes

just follow your eyes

I hear her voice calling my name

sound is deep

in the dark

I hear her voice

and I start to run

into the trees

into the trees

these boobs were meant for walkin
and that's just what they'll do
one of these days these boobs are gonna boob all over you

oh sunshine
your loving beauty passed me by
should I waste my time
in your valley beneath your sky
aaaaaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaa
aaaaaa
I am home!

you move your own mountain
the trees have grown
the trees have grown
now it's over
now it's over and I'm going home
aaaaaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaa
aaaaaa
I am home!

oh honey, you know that you can (and will) lick my doo!
oh honey, you know that you can (and will) lick my big fat dooooooo!

lost as I may be
in the fog of my own noise and trivialities
Grand Holy Mother, grant me clarity
I am standing on the edge of forever

forever

I mean, people don't MEAN harm, but they DO come across as real hostile especially with all the (I hope unintentional) double standards, and after all the people who very definitely DID mean harm, if you get what I mean. It's a bad mix, and I don't quite trust my biases here.

update; I did in fact peel, cube and saute one of the kohlrabis

it, like DCD's final(?) album is incredibly good right now.

tell me I shouldn't peel, cube and saute kohlrabi while coming up after having a half edible and listening to Dead Can Dance