Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

okay so;

targeting trans and "illegal immigrants" = equivalent to going after a specific child or family member as example, complete with the "it can happen to you"

escalation of FBI/DOJ overreach/potential military involvement = "and I can hurt you"

use of media/frequency of executive actions = "at any time"

tariffs, harassment of foreign visitors = isolating tactics. "because you're dependent on me"

I know EXACTLY what this is. This is domestic abuse writ large, this is why I'm half triggered all the damn time

Flowers at my folks’ place, Saturday.

Park yesterday with a lot of cool tree stumps. Because there’s more to this world than shitty rich fucks getting everything they want forever.

Weird little anxiety attack. Took a melatonin, sitting up to try and breathe.

But the good news is, I'm not in "my art sucks" so much as "while I'm drawing I'm making stuff I'm seriously into, it's just other people are doing DIFFERENT things I turn out to be into - and give that they've been doing it for quite some time they have a technical polish which is daunting."

I did wind up getting doughnuts today after all. The guy at the counter wanted to close up shop early and sold me nearly everything he had left for half price.

The GRIDDLECAKE. A digital frontier. I tried to picture packets of information as they moved through the diner. What did they look like - waffles? omelettes? Were the circuits like strips of bacon, or like sausages? I kept dreaming of a world I thought I'd never see, but I was probably just hungry.

https://youtu.be/h4Bq69HfR0Y

"it's the little differences. you know what they call a quarter pounder with cheese on Thra?"
"they don't call it a quarter pounder with cheese?"
"no man it's another place, another time in an age of wonder, they don't know what the fuck a quarter pound is."

I ca
You ca
We all ca
For YUCCA

It’s lesbian visibility day! They’re right in the room, man, they’re everywhere! *dee deet dee deet dee deet DEE DEEEEEEEE*

based on ABBA’s Swedish origins we can conclude that the Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only seventeen, is in fact an incarnation of Iduna, goddess of eternal youth, whose kidnapping did great mischief amongst the Aesir

proposed sequels to Dwarf Fortress are Elf Forest and of course Halfling Diners, Drive Thrus and Dives

and now the acapella version of the Get Smart theme;

duh duh DUH (doo doo doo doot doot) duh! SLAM!
duh duh DUH (doo doo doo doot doot) duh. THUMP!
duh duh DUH, duh duh DUH, duh duh DUH, duh duh dah, duh dah dah, dah dah dadalee dadalee dadalee dah! BANG!
(doodley-eedley doodley-eedley eedley-dah)

something I've never been able to figure out is whether MLP is an actual descriptor so there are My Big Coldbloods out there in the ponyverse or whether these are honorifics so 18 hh MLPs are still MLPs.

well, at least being suddenly awake at this hour isn't about depression, I think, with my right leg shaking at top speed.

#drawing this evening, listening to Garmarna.

#drawing last night, trying to pull on Johan Egerkrans and Bill Berry (visual artist not drummer) for inspiration.

There’s the food trucks parked in Reseda
There’s a freeway runnin’ through the yard
Now I’m a bad boy cause I won’t eat her cooking
Cause of dairy and it gives me the farts
Yes I’m free, free fallin’!

this again

She’s a good girl, loves burritos
Loves tacos, enchiladas too
She’s a good girl, crazy about sopas
And on Sundays she gets menu
Do I’m free!
Free fallin’!

so I want to avoid making my pessimism a self-fulfilling prophecy.

This is very easy while feeling trapped, stuck and treading water; coming from a background of catastrophising; influenced by how all it takes is some malicious intent to make everything harmful feel actively malicious (remember, some of the governments' actions are intentionally malicious); and sabotaged by ADHD/CPTSD inability to think of a future.

In other words I'm living through the sort of very frequent low level negatives which are what kept me in a cycle of self-hate and despair for decades, so even though I know my perception slants a lot more negative than actual (and potentially negative!) reality, this is VERY seductive for me - very hard not to buy into, totally.

the part of Siegfrieds Tod und Trauermarsch where I just cannot keep a straight face among all the apocalyptic epic and break out into "Oh mighty warrior of great fighting stock/Might I enquire to ask, ehhh, what's up, Doc?"