Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

CROSS THE RIVER LEAVE THE ABYSS
GIVE THE SEAT OF THE TOILET A KISS
EACH VIRGIN SACRIFICE SPEAKS THESE MAGIC WORDS
"JUST JIGGLE THE HANDLE, LET FLOW GO THE TURDS!"
AH! HERE IT COMES BABY, AH'M DROPPIN' MAH LOAD
AH AIN'T JUST UP ON IT, AH *AM* TH' COMMODE!
THE POWER OF THE TOILET MUST NEVER BE ABUSED
HE MUST BE SPONGED HE MUST BE PLUNGED LEST CARNAGE SHALL ENSUE
IF A DEAD SHEEP WERE TO CLOG HIM, WHO KNOWS WHAT WOULD ARISE
MAYBE HE'D SUMMON THE MASTER. WOULDN'T THAT BE A SURPRISE!

sure there’s romantasy, but people are going nuts about spamtasy, the new genre about hanging out eating fried luncheon meat

I'd been thinking about ADHD (I think ADHD explains why no matter when the last little treat for myself was, it always feels like it was weeks ago, and how also how my anger in response to politics is essentially frustration) *and* a friend reposting something very hard hitting about aging being grieving.

Late last year, I realized I was grieving very literally, that I went through the stages of grief and I think ADHD problems with frustration is why I bounce between anger and depression a lot;

* denial (but this can't be happening, these people are supposed to be knowing and caring)
* bargaining (well maybe if I'm a better person and not be an angry monster and work harder and)
* anger (oh FUCK THIS! FUCK THIS STACKED SYSTEM! FUCK EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS!)
* depression (I can't change this situation because I'm innately a fuck up/it's been engineered to keep me stuck/anger only gets me in trouble rather than saves me from trouble, all I can do is sit and wait for something to let me escape)
* acceptance (I have no idea what this actually looks like)

Earlier I realized; any demographic, even a relatively tiny one like Jews, trans folk, or nerds is still huge; we number in the millions. So telling me we’re all successful coders, lawyers, doctors, aerospace engineers, etc., is literally untrue and I need not feel shame or rejection for being a poor, old, gray ace, and yet also a furry fan.

I AM TIRED OF THESE FUCKING EARTH RAPISTS GETTING TO DESTROY OUR FORESTS AND NOTHING CAN STOP THEM

I WANT OUR FOREST SERVICE BACK

I WISH ALL OF YOU NOTHING BUT HOURS OF FUCKING AGONY YOU SHIT YOU SHIT YOU SHIT

MAY YOUR RELIGION NEVER REASSURE YOU AND MAY EVERY FUCKING BURGER YOU LOOK FORWARD TO TASTE LIKE WOOD SHAVINGS

misinterpreting "TTRPG" to generate two entirely different games;

Boob Fighters, a titty RPG about your bust size culminating in visiting the fabled extraplanar City of Bras

a 1/120th scale RPG using models somewhere between HO and N scales to play out highly tactical scenarios

Initially I figured on saying this sometime this year, but with two weeks before Trump drags us into further war, now sounds like a good time.

Basically; a kid can potentially not just survive but thrive in adulthood with unmedicated ADHD and related CPTSD. A kid can potentially thrive after having nearly died/lost a limb in a bad accident, OR being minority/Queer in an ultraconservative area, OR growing up with abusive parents and schools. But odds are against them experiencing ALL of this and still coming out in okay emotional health.

yesterday's "fun" reminds me of growing up in the 80s.

I grew up around a lot of Vietnam vets so when Reagan first bombed Libya, I thought; this is it. This is what ends up with me hauling a backpack and M-16 around another country. And it obviously didn't. Reagan's ratings soared, presumably Qaddhafi's ratings soared with his people, and months later we were doing it again. The only people to really lose were the Libyans who died and uh, us having to pay for all of this crap.

So I feel cynical of "he's going to nuke someone" - which is a bit naive of me, since he's definitely exhibited interest in doing so in the past, and like all conservatives he really gets into the idea of Punishing Bad People - and assume this whole thing has been engineered to boost ratings which might be sagging even among conservatives thanks to HIS recession, HIS inflation, HIS jackboots showing up in our airports and communities. It's either that and/or market manipulation. I know "lives mean nothing to this Administration getting what it wants" is a statement like "the sky is blue" or "water is wet" but still.

I emailed again asking my senators to support or start impeachment, but of course nothing's going to happen.

* checks kosher for passover rules again *
* orc voice *

"Looks like CORN'S back on the menu, boys!"

#drawings today

I haven't read many of the Sharpe series, I gave up after All the Weyrs of Sharpe and never got to Dieu-Empereur des Sharpes

“To serve man.”
“No wait stop! It’s actually…”
“It’s actually a cookbook?”
“No worse, it’s about playing tennis!”

#drawings last night, trying for lighter pencils to set up inking.

Now that I’ve had more sleep the sadness and worry have given way to anger I can’t do anything about, so here’s last night’s #drawings

I mean it's not a particularly big realization that actually helping requires good intentions *and* money, and most people have only one of these. But I'm really hitting that one hard, this morning.

please understand this is the most devout I've been since I left for college - before then, religion wasn't really a choice - and consequently this is the first time I've really looked into what I can eat during Passover.

this morning I've come to the conclusion that "Ashkenazic" describes Jews who believe God doesn't want you to enjoy food.

#drawings last night

Wandering down the wrong aisle in Safeway I discovered there’s a dry dog food called “One.”

* Siberian husky voice *
DRY FOOD! HAS TAKEN MY PAWS!
TAKEN MY EARS!
TAKEN MY MUZZLE!
I CANNOT LIVE!
I CANNOT DIE!
EATING THIS STUFF!
GET ME THE GUSHY FOOOOOD!
* frantic drumming *

@Tuftears have you seen this yet? https://bsky.app/profile/yermawsart.bsky.social/post/3mijm3lwrwc2r

Last night’s #drawing apparently was Greek mythology.