Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

The bad news again, is that for literally decades I went with a definition of self which was hugely artifactual; just getting slammed with criticism with very few positives, really frequently, usually by abusive people, when I already felt trapped and stuck, already a terrible association from PTSD. These shitty experiences don’t really say anything about me; I could actually be an amazing saintly genius, a worthless stupid failure, or anything in between.

definitely one of those "joy will come again, it's just hard to remember this right now" moments.

there was a young girl whose smile was a frown
'cause she was crippled for life and she couldn't speak a sound
and she wished and prayed she could stop livin', so she decided to die.
She drove her wheelchair to the edge of the shore
and to her legs she smiled, "You won't hurt me no more"
but then a sight she never seen made her jump and say,
"Look a golden winged ship is heading my way!"

And it didn't really have to stop.

It just kept on goin'.

And some castles made of sand slip into the sea, eventually.

this is American top 40! Here on the radio station you grew up with, music radio 138 OH FUCK! #SongLyrics #CaseyKasem

"there are four distinct types of loneliness identified by psychologists: emotional, social, situational and chronic" yeah and all of them are at least *kinda* connected to capitalism, or entirely due to capitalism if you're left-leaning enough.

holy crap this Kyuss/Queens of the Stone Age album is awesome (also how's that work, since aren't they the same people?)

… so I guess what I want is a middle way to be pissed off which honors my need to not be miserable but which also honors that I have every right to be pissed off at stuff this crappy.

Lots of related thoughts; hating when parties/Faire/weekends/cons end, wishing I actively liked my day job, looking at other folks’ apartments and wondering what they’re like, what it’d be like to live there.

#drawings from earlier this week and yesterday in the car which I tightened this morning. Kobold faces a leucrotta; a wizard faces vrocks (overt violence), fire and hill giants; Underdark natives (derro, two duergar, a ghoul).

Look, one of the things Mastodon has going for it is CWs. So declaring that not using CWs is something that’s morally right and it’s vital to shove whatever right into everyone’s collective snoots? In addition to any other concerns, you’ve just made (old style, pre fash takeover) Twitter only elsewhere.

International Cottage Uv Pancakes or

Spoiler; Arashi no Yoru Ni has about the LAST ending you could possibly imagine.

The whole shack shimmies
The whole shack shimmies
The whole shack shimmies
When everybody’s moving around and around and around!
DIG through the ditches and BURN through the witches Ah SLAM in the back of mah DRAGULA

This is depressing. I love agedashi dofu and never once has it given me superpowers. I’m gonna call the izakaya and complain. And see if they’ll give me more agedashi dofu.

Watching Tochiongar Seven and he wants to leave the evil serpent clan to the police and self defense forces. Dude have you EVER watched Japanese movies? About the LAST people you depend on to deal with giant monsters are police and the JSDF.

My carpool was willing to put on Pro-Vision L-3 by Against Me… and blasted it while passing the big fundie signs on I-5 south.

Achievement unlocked?

I reluctantly accept that "Me 262" is a better song than "Aces High," even though obviously I like Spitfires a lot more.

ZULU SOUNDTRACK https://youtu.be/vbp5imUWLLg via @YouTube

uSUTHU! IS YOUR SWEET FOOD GOOD?