My apparent response to yesterday's overhearing of LGBTPhobia, and my unhappiness with being parsed a cis woman
Let us not be misunderstood ;P I'm proud of who I am. And hey, it's… something I can do
https://awoo.space/media/2zXN5F0sQaUrkHb3EA8
#postfurry sex is just saying 'you're a good toy' 'no you're a good toy' back and forth until everyone is a good toy.
unhappiness, suicide mention
I just don't want to exist anymore. I want to rest and fade and go back beyond the stars. I'm so tired. So so tired I want to just die
woo, unhappiness
And meanwhile I'm touch deprived and fucking needy and treated so awkwardly by my roomate. I hate everything and I'm interrupted CONSTANTLY and talked over and I have no time for ANYTHING, not even writing.
I HATE THIS WORLD I HATE THIS WORLD I HATE THIS WORLD I HATE THIS WORLD I HATE THIS WORLD I HATE THIS WORLD I HATE THIS WORLD I HATE THIS WORLD
woo, unhappiness
I slept last night 6-7 hours. Worked , and then spend all the rest of the day laying and resting and sleeping and that's basically my norm. I must rest and sleep at least 12 hours a day and I'm absolutely sick of no one seeing that as a problem. It's always "oh that's good", and everything focus on not getting enough sleep.
woo, unhappiness
Looped into this is my discontent with being parsed a cis woman, my discontent with my bits, my weird libido…
Do I just not have the ability to be happy? Is that it? Am I only content when I'm unhappy? Am I always just pointing at one thing or another with a sigh. Hah. Maybe if I ever did get this body I see myself as, is suddenly just not want it anymore. How'd that be for a fucking joke
woo, unhappiness
I feel like I've lost whatever touch I had. A lot of things seem forced and I'm not sure what to actually -do- anymore. Or in general. I actually never did?
I mean, I want to do something... I want to be more involved but I don't know how. I don't know what to do or how to cope but my life is now just work and being exhausted from work and being just sucked 24/7 into the orthocosm and I hate it. I hate the need to survive and live like this I just want to GO HOME.
gender (cw: homophobia)
I don't know how I feel about being parsed a cis woman by someone who turns around and rants privately (he thinks) about gay people and 'people these days'
Really uncomfortable, to start.
But it makes me uncomfortable with myself…
I had a dream, you know… a while back… that I went to a party and was just a cis girl and ended up feeling really bad.
Now it's actually happening and I'm getting that feeling again.
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing