Raspberry Foxy @Raspberryfloof@awoo.space

I also made a MIDI version of Stress last night, while I was figuring out how to use MuseScore, so if anybody would like to hear a version of Stress with less chiptune...
https://raspberry.rosenthalcastle.org/music/Stress.mid.mp3
(You can get the .mid version by removing the .mp3.)

Also, here's the notation MuseScore generated: https://raspberry.rosenthalcastle.org/music/Stress.pdf

(Also I stopped making music for a long time sometime after finishing that song... I wanted to make music more like my friends', that wasn't so ... simplistic? and I couldn't do it...)

Re-Crystallized has a kick/snare, but still only has the same three layers + drums setup...

https://raspberry.rosenthalcastle.org/music/Re-Crystallized.mp3

Stress is ... a weird, minimalistic piece? but still keeps itself to "melody, bass, countermelody-ish-thing" in general...

https://raspberry.rosenthalcastle.org/music/Stress.mp3

Choco Factory reminds me a LOT of Yoshi's Cookie, honestly. It helps some that WW:DIY's soundfont lends itself to NES-style songs...

https://raspberry.rosenthalcastle.org/music/ChocoFactoryDIY.mp3

Thinking about it, I guess ... most of my music has been heavily, heavily influenced by all the NES/GB music I listened to growing up...

Everything I've written has even been structured similarly: a main melody line, a countermelody, a bassline, sometimes some drums (usually even only a hat/some noise that sounds like a hat, just like NES/GB could make), maximum 4 or so layers/channels, and kept short and looping...

Argh, it feels like every melody I write is in minor and has the same chord progression x.x

I don't really think of myself having any useful occupational title, honestly...

I only call myself a programmer because I was once paid so I could write code for a while; I heavily avoid calling myself a musician because even though I have written music I couldn't explain how I did it; and goodness knows I wouldn't ever consider myself a game designer or developer until I actually finish one of these innumerable games I've started... even though I technically have, years ago...

Maybe ... I should open up to other people... and talk with people, and share ideas, and tell people how much I appreciate them, even if I don't know them very well...

I heard there were several amazing people on Awoo/in the greater Mastodon area who were making really interesting things and dabbling around with making games for old consoles...

I'm too afraid of talking with them about anything, but ... I bet it would be interesting hearing about what they've made, or what they're making...

Me: "I wonder how hard it would be to write a full game for an old console...?"

*crashes Itadaki Street 2 about five different ways by typoing just a few code bytes*

Me: "Oh..."

I wish I had some way of getting an income (kofi doesn't count because I haven't made any money from kofi in months anyway and it isn't consistent) but I don't do anything worth making a Patreon for and I am so anxious that trying for a "normal" job is very very difficult ;~;

I kind of hope I lose my randomizer tournament match tonight? because then I won't be taking up so much time or room from my roommates and can give them space (since my streaming setup stretches from the TV across the bedroom over to my computer on the other side)

But I kind of don't really want to lose? because I don't like losing and have been trying very hard to do my best too?

I don't know ;~; I feel very stuck right now and don't think I'll be entirely happy with any outcome ;~;

I hate being jittery with anticipation :S

I guess there's tomorrow... but I can't see myself playing any better then...

... I guess it was probably better that I played so poorly and lost so badly? I don't feel sad about losing, just depressed and annoyed that I played badly tonight...

I'm going to lose this race so badly ;~;