Roady @Roady_Dragonfae@awoo.space

I think I've narrowed things down. It seems Koko has an allergy to grass. I've noticed she's been flaring up after making her way through an unmowed parking strip and errupting in sneezing fits immediately after sticking her nose in it.

@emanate I'm Kookoo about felting them into another Koko. xP

Koko Puffs, anyone?

I can feel my body slowly falling apart at the seams... Taking in too many things at once. Having already dealt with too many things at once.

I've been feeling conaistently sick since last Friday. Ebs and flows. My immune system is being taxed and I feel like my body is falling apart.

Fuck... This society. Fuck this society. I just want to get a bunch of us together and disappear into the woods so we don't have to deal with this false reality that capitalism created.

Maybe people created gods and goddesses because they found it all too unnerving that they themselves are the creators?

A little food for thought.

Bleh... Koko got into my trash last night. She only ate half of her breakfast. I put the rest in a treat puzzle she snacked on all day. Now she's only finished half of her dinner.

I hope it's just today that's off and she's going to feel fine tomorrow. If not, I may have to take her back to the vet.

While I love to be involved in a community, I prefer to be my own autonomous entity. Every time I'm in a group and have to play by a group's rules I just fall apart. Especially when I already struggle with horrible social anxiety.

Not everybody can handle being on a team. Those of us who work better on our own often feel restrained or tied down and would rather just go off on our own to get shit done instead of butting heads. And that's okay.

Once again, people are different.

To properly recenter myself after this rant, I need to remember that these kinds of people are not only treating me like shit.

They treat everyone else like shit, and everyone else is aware of it. There's going to be assholes at every turn. I just have to be mindful of that between now and when I finally have my cabin.

Note. I'm not talking about anyone here. This community is the best. I just wish I could say the same about some of the activists I work with.

My end goal in life is to escape human society. As it sinks in that even in communities that are supposed to be accepting, there are still judgemental and condescending assholes who can't accept neurodiversity.

Part of being a shaman does involve varying degrees of this kind of alienation. I'm glad I've found those who can relate.

Because it hurts... It hurts so much to try and be kind and generous only to be spat on and judged for being "too quirky."

Koko is such an adorably photogenic dog! Love how she's enjoying herself on that warm spring day.

It's a dull, consistent pain I feel. That some people won't have the patience to deal with the fact that I think differently. That I have all of these quirks and occasional brainfarts.

They go around projecting that I'm an idiot when I'm simply just... Different. As much as it hurts. That's okay. I'm patient enough to understand them, it's their problem if they can't have the same amount of patience for me.

At the end of the day, at least I have the forest and my dog.

Additional characteristics include Anarchism, Pragmatism, and Complotism. This sums me up pretty damn well.

@Oneironott *hugs* If you need to get away from this fucked up capitalist society and go on spontaneous adventures, don't be afraid to hit me up. We don't have to go far to find wonders around here.

In just under a week of bringing Koko into my life, she's bonded to me like *snap* that!

I've made such a strong imprint that when I stepped away to use the bathroom at a friend's place she started getting antsy.

On top of the fact that she's so sweet, quiet, and loves to play! Since I started her antibiotics and nonsteroidal painkillers she's just been getting happier and happier!

As much as I wish I could rely entirely on a natural remedy, it's at a point where we just need to bite the bullet on this one...

Poor Koko has an infection... And an extensive one at that. The vet perscribed Apoquel and antibiotics because it's so bad.

Don't worry little one. I'll make you better.

Koko is the Japanese prefix for "here" or "this place." Which is a play on words I find incredibly fitting for my dog's incredibly Zen attitude and being in the moment.

At the jobsite, she's one with this place. When I take her to the park, she's one with that place. Anywhere I take her, she's one with that place. Taking it all in as a calm and meditative being.