itch.io bundle (boosts ok)
anyway, this list of categories of games on itch.io is 75 pages long now, mostly thanks to how I've been hyperfocusing on building it for weeks. the list makes it real easy to find whatever particular cool stuff you want. enjoy the new section at the end: genres. add to the doc whatever's missing, editing's open to one and all.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/11eKwMOMPoTMIx6D5-Cv-YRHtEGyaiWQ-20BzDDa5SM4/edit#
Otherkin, Longing, Rambling, Dreams
A dream last night left me with an extreme sense of longing and sadness due to the intensity of it, primarily in the shape of desiring my old body, or an approximation of it.
The dream itself was pretty mundane, it was simply me exploring my old home from last life. Everything was about where it should be from the oldest memories I have of it. Cool walls, a pool to get in and out of the little enclosed area, jars, a cool breeze. A gentle rain was coming through the 'window' of rocks, tapping along the floor and flowing out. A foggy view of the ocean beyond, with storms gathering in the distance, not unusual for the area. Everything had a smell, a texture, a sensation, to every touch. Even the light breeze against my earfins and wings. Everything had more intense colors, with some I'm not sure how to describe, similar to how I remember being able to see before. So much detail and stuff to unpack from that dream...
It made me realize how much I just miss certain things, even aspects of my old life. My body especially... and really hit the 'species dysphoria' button pretty hard, heh.
And I miss my old home. And I wish I could maybe one day reconstruct it here, even if it wouldn't be quite the same.
Politics, COVID, -
I am continuing to try to find ways to distract myself from the massive anxiety I am feeling while my state continues to destroy itself with COVID.
Arizona has lost this battle and it just continues to get worse, with protesters against mandatory masks, Trump rally, and police engaging peaceful anti-Trump and BLM protesters with violence.
Stay safe, everyone... Especially fellow Arizonians in this mess. We'll get through it, but also fuck Trump, fuck the right entirely, and fuck the police.
US Pol, SCOTUS (++!!??)
The Supreme Court of the United States just ruled that Federal discrimination laws protect LGBTQ+ employees.
I did NOT see that coming, but in this world? I'll take any good news.
https://twitter.com/SCOTUSblog/status/1272529876080381954?s=19
MH, ~, Drug Mention
I've noticed my depression has been flaring up the last week or so, and unsure why. It might be due to lack of Vitamin D, among other factors like lockdown and the world being on fire. But it is bothering me, and I am concerned about its effects on those around me, my mate included.
I had gotten so used to being.... Well, happy. Getting smacked down like this is deeply distressing and I may work on discussing it with my psychiatrist next time I see them..
Thankfully my OCD has mostly been kicked in the butt with the right meds! So small victories. ^^
I'm idly also considering picking up weed again as a solution for my depression since it worked well at keeping my general state happy with only using every few days.
COVID-19, Arizona, -
Alarming trend in Arizona. Our inpatient bed usage is at 79% and ICU at 72% utilization.
We also had two days in a row with over 1k new cases with new cases continue to skyrocket due to community spread.
Governor seems content to ignore it and I am worried we are about to have a New York incident here.
mh, very -, mostly getting it out of my head
Things keep changing. Patterns keep getting disrupted. World is on fire. Friends are acting irrationally about stupid shit and some are believing disinfo.
I am having trouble coping or managing, I am finding myself starting to spiral back into 2018 levels of anxiety like tonight.
I'm afraid of losing my relationship, my fiance, my life, my friends to viruses or police/military. Of losing everything. I don't know why. I don't know if its rational. I am having trouble believing when people tell me 'it will all be okay and everything is fine'.
I can just try to ignore it and hope they are right. I am scared, more so than I ever have been.
US Politics
Trump is trying to declare Antifa as a terrorist organization, which means anyone who is harboring those ideals could be labeled a terrorist and apprehended.
Which means he is trying to make opposing fascism illegal, like the fucking cowardly fascist he is.
All while he is tweeting up a storm while hiding in his bunker under the White House like the fucking coward he is.
Keep this storm brewing, and keep fighting for what's right, and let his presidency burn with the fury of all of those who have suffered under it.
psa, Masto admin, birdsite link
Hey Masto admins: heads up that 4chan is planning a multi-site targeted harassment and misinformation campaign on social media targeting LGBTQ+ communities: https://twitter.com/dr_jfprice/status/1265658344133591041
Resources that suspicious accounts are using are listed in the thread.
Otherkin, sea dragon and part-time gryphon (Nakawe at cons!), often goo, extremely spiritual, high functioning autistic, agender, demi, socialist, extremely pro cannabis.
Work in space related stuff.
Account for posting musings and sometimes self created art. Personal, too, apparently!
Currently Arizona based!