s0rd @howlingalice@awoo.space
- pronouns today:
- they/them i guess
The Flock⛦23⛦pronouns vary⛦dnfi under 18
a mess of blackbirds in a trenchcoat all trying to be the same person and variably succeeding.
Joined Oct 2017
Seeing some Flight Rising dragons lately makes me wanna get back to FR, but I can't remember my email/username. x x All my dergssss. Gone. I must start anew in November.
kink
Talking with my sub earlier today, I realized that a lot of the problems in kink and the discourse that surrounds it would be gone if we just collectively decided that cishets weren't allowed :V
I feel like that applies to a lot of things but especially here
the Sims is basically a $40 character creator that I still spend 8 hours modding before i even open the program
Wow, I haven't felt the inspiration to write poetry in literal years. Not like this. Let's hope I can hold onto this inspiration till I can actually get something written :O :crossed_fingers_hmn_v2:
"idk man your salt is cavernous and multifaceted" is probably the most accurate testimonial of me I've ever heard
im still awake and that's bad :dead: and if i sleep now i'll be woken up again in three hours but really i should sleep now goodnight everyone :v_paw_nx25:
My attraction to some men isn't even a new revelation I just keep waffling on it. x x
orientation/identity struggles
Plus with as many men as I've been traumatized by in my life, it's extra hard to admit I like some men. I feel like I'm not supposed to, and I feel like I'll get hurt if I do. :/
But I guess the fact of the matter is I do indeed like some men.
orientation/identity struggles
And I cannot for the life of me find a way to describe my orientation that makes me comfortable? Im uncomfortable with bi and ply, am not pan, and really dislike any labels with a -sexual/-romantic suffix in general.
I'd really like a word that specifies my attraction to alterhumans specifically, as well, and at this point I'm thinking I might just have to coin one. And that's not a thing I'm thrilled with bc... I'm worried whatever I coin will just sound silly?
orientation/identity struggles
And I just. Really really don't wanna feel straight. And there's not a whole lot of support out there making me feel otherwise.
I know I was more comfortable with it when I thought I was a trans dude, so there's definitely something to that worry.
There's also the "boys r gross and bad" attitude I see in a lot of spaces I frequent and it kinda makes me feel bad about being attracted to them sometimes. Like I get it but it doesn't make me feel great.
orientation/identity struggles
I just feel a lot of pressure bc I identify with women to some extent and I've been pushed so hard by cishet people around me who think I'm a woman and are just foaming at the mouth to push me into a relationship with a man and "prove" I'm really cishet after all. Like, my mother would just looove that and it infuriates me.
So saying I'm not attracted to men despite my being partnered with one is really a rebellion and defense against that, too. :/ Which isn't gr8
orientation/identity struggles
So. I think I'm kind of coming to terms with the fact that yea, Im attracted to *some* men. When specific conditions are met that I can't really determine, outside of being primarily attracted to alterhuman men.
It's really hard for me now bc I've struggled with wondering how much is compulsory het and just. Feeling not "nonbinary enough." Like I'm worried my attraction is straight or perceived as such despite it being literally impossible for me to be straight.
food
i like potatoes and am happy there's been a lot of mashed potato in the house lately
Watching a playthrough of Frankenstein: Through the Eyes of the Monster now and honestly how did this game not creep me the hell out and give me nightmares or something? I was 7 and Tim Curry is a really effective Frankenstein and the atmosphere is 👌
s0rd
boosted
i made this silly lefty meme edit yesterday and thought i'd put it up here since i just saw it on my tl
ask @Gaypow, he can corroborate https://awoo.space/media/oxS4hw096cC1W62_SVk
s0rd
boosted
Me and jorts before awoo.space: Meh
Me and jorts after awoo.space: *Bursts through wall* DID SOMEONE SAY JORTS!?!?!?
Besides Nancy Drew ofc, there was Frankenstein: Through the Eyes of the Monster, Mummy: Tomb of the Pharaoh, Jack the Ripper (2003), some kinda Dracula game I cant recall the name of, some Scooby Doo games (wow an age-appropriate PC game :V)....I really dug 'em and I'm finding I still really do. A friendo recommended me some kinda X-Files game like that a while ago but it's impossible to find x x
Im really starting to remember how much I(/..we?) liked point-n-click adventure games as a kid.
Nancy Drew livetooting; spoilers for a 15 yo game
me: I got knocked unconscious and woke up in a burning shed with my hands and feet tied!
Red: whoa you're hysterical and not making sense also did you get my bird picture?
Park Ranger: I'm giving you a ticket for burning garbage in the park
The person who will later turn out to have done it to me: Awwwwww here have some tea take care of yourself
- pronouns today:
- they/them i guess
The Flock⛦23⛦pronouns vary⛦dnfi under 18
a mess of blackbirds in a trenchcoat all trying to be the same person and variably succeeding.
Joined Oct 2017
