Indi Latrani @indi@awoo.space
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Glowy Postfurry Gay Coyotter Rave Toy.
Responding to @mentions and not much else. 💜
Joined Apr 2017
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This is not to say the trip was a loss. If nothing else, even that part was a coyote lesson.
I got plenty of stuff to do based on what I got from the night walk already, which this fits tight into. It's harder than just going up a mountain and getting hit by a (metaphorical) bolt of lightning, but the literal bolts of lightning sent a pretty clear message about which approach is right for me now.
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And of course, it was sunny and beautiful all the way DOWN the mesa. We could've turned around again, or stuck it out up there, but gods know how the weather would've changed then. It's weather.
All the other spiritwork I did, the less-flashy stuff, the training connection I cultivated and the meditative night walk, those went fine.
But I walked up that mesa with no planning other than a vague expectation of "stuff happens" and I got slapped down hard. Should've known better by now.
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A bunch of stuff just slammed together in my head about my experiences during the NM trip and the conclusion I came to is... challenging.
Consider the weather. Far off inspiring thunderstorms with only occasional light rain reaching us for most of the time... except once we got to the top of the mesa where I was intending to have a "just heck me up" undirected spiritual something-or-other. THERE, it was rumbling thunder right overhead, and rain turned to hail until we gave up early.
In case anyone wants to see (a ton) more Meow Wolf pictures, here is a whole album:
https://www.icloud.com/sharedalbum/#B0dGrq0zwGqGauq
This does include some of the easily-accessible documents, which could be considered spoilery, but what I included here was intended to just give a hint of the weirdness, not give away any of the deeper secrets. ^.^
Working on reintegrating into "normal life".
This is probably gonna take a while.
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OMFG they kept the bowling alley's arcade games. And put them in this little pocket universe. I'm doing. :D :D :D
https://awoo.space/media/e2-yY8FJVu1VcYanSOA
https://awoo.space/media/UFc3pUgDZRYvB1Bqs5c
So how do I get a couple dozen folks from the PNW all down to Santa Fe at the same time? Because literally everyone I know needs to wander around this place with us.
This is maybe the most postfurry-vibe place I have ever seen.
https://awoo.space/media/fDoc91dqOX4EI5E2GP4
https://awoo.space/media/iALgVvRA-ccmmoMipnk
https://awoo.space/media/wxBPQcQLZVSWN9vQErk
https://awoo.space/media/9w0BaaGq55SZ4_9UpR0
Me and @Elanna are going through this right now: https://meowwolf.com/about/visit/
This is... So Much.
What I expected: Cool glowy art installation.
What I got: Gone Home set in Night Vale.
And then there were a bunch of coyotes howling! With thunder at the same time! :D :D :D
^o8o^
Arrived in New Mexico just in time for an unexpected thunderstorm that we got to watch for the whole hour-long drive back to my parents' place.
Now I'm sitting out in the rain watching the storm slowly move over the horizon.
I haven't seen lightning like this in over a decade.
The thunderbirds are welcoming me back, perhaps.
I made sure to give them many awoos of thanks.
Tonight I hand-wrote three and a half pages of formal correspondence in a constructed script of my own design, by far the most I've ever written in that script at once.
Tomorrow, or sometime this week, I'll burn all the pages, along with several other pages written by other folks.
This weekend I will deposit the ashes at a specific location in New Mexico.
This spiritwork stuff gets real weird sometimes.
Watched Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them for the first time last night, and discovered/remembered somewhat to my surprise that I have strong (positive) feelings about thunderbirds.
Another thing for the "stuff that just happened to Indi from growing up in New Mexico" list I guess. :)
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**exalted trans power rune** #mastoart #fractals #computerart https://awoo.space/media/y9UFZrv_PsENyBzsmdw
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@indi @Ferrovore My personal favorite Fred Patten story is actually personal. Fred reviewed one of my books, and it's proudly erotic in a lot of places. His review was, almost to a fault, "I skipped all the sex scenes because they don't interest me, but the plot doesn't make sense. Making the sex part of the plot is a bad plan because then I can't skip it and still understand what's going on."
And now you know why I don't trust Fred Patten as an editor.
Such a good article:
Why Nerds Hate Furries:
https://theculturalbarxist.wordpress.com/2017/06/29/why-nerds-hate-furries/
"in furry, where the fandom was uniquely focused on giving free reign to individual expression and where there’s no one single corporate canon, these same anti-LGBTQ arguments were a harder sell. Without the psychological divide between creators and consumers, no official gatekeeper could declare something to be incompatible with 'furry canon.'"
(h/t @xurnami )
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weird pre-bed thoughts
I think the reason I'm still stuck waist-deep in Furry Bullshit is because it's the closest thing to what I actually want: a stable culture that understands the editing, proliferating and fracturing of identity as normal due course. I'm tired of having to act like my own tiny fortress in an endless field of tiny fortresses! I want to pull my architecture apart into gooey 5D cubist shit and show it off from all angles! I want to know emotions they haven't given names to yet.
Interesting thing learned from looking at old con badges. No one knew how to draw coyotes in the early 2000s. :P
That was 6 chat messages and it seems like it took subjective HOURS of emotional labor.
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pronouns: he/him • ve/ver
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Glowy Postfurry Gay Coyotter Rave Toy.
Responding to @mentions and not much else. 💜
Joined Apr 2017
