🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime @kelseyhusky@awoo.space

A Major local game company headhunted me yesterday to be an animator for their cutscenes for their next major release in a long running, beloved, and financially successful franchises. I would be using Maya, though experience with any other 3d animating software would be seen as a bonus.

I seriously considered just downloading Maya and trying to crash-course it to take the interview.

I dunno. probably won't, but it was fun to think about for a few minutes.

I have to be two-three different people during operating hours, and I start the day by having to put on the Work-me shell. Its a complex transformation, with many multi-part steps, and it has to start way too early in the morning for my energy levels.

Sometimes, I call my mom, and then I have to be Talking-To-Mom-Me, and that shell has its own attachment points, some of which still have trauma bearings.

Me doesn't show up until I get back home, and even switching to that has an energy gradient i have to climb.

I wonder if why I'm so tired all the time is cause being so many people takes so mucn energy, and it has to be spent in locations that I don't even want to be in.

Or it could be cause I stayed up till 0100 watching youtube and verifying my internet came back up (It did, but it went out at 0030, which was between when I stopped watching youtube, and was trying to go to bed)

Ahhhhh! I sent a small book of very specific text description to an artist to get a huskybot beta platform refsheet done. I feel bad about having to use English, since I find it hard to clearly talk about shapes using just words, but if I could put the shapes together on my own, I wouldn't need to work with an artist, would I? I'm super glad I had a bunch of reference images, and very grateful to @mawr for helping with a color marking sketch last night.

@wobblewuffess I felt the same way when I had to present some training for my team at work! Good luck!

Just sent some hastily translated design specs to a printer to have some reference schematics produced! I really hope they are understandable, since most of the original data is much more emotional and mental aesthetics instead of 3-d dimensional numbers. I really wish I could get a proper graphic generating kernel extension to compile on my architecture.

@Sapphicgiraffic@snouts.online toothtarget?

@Alistor Spikes and D-rings are totally PlushPunk Aesthetics, and you've got my 💯 level support

Trying to write up a description for the first official Beta Huskybot Character sheet. This is really hard, because I know how I should look like, but since I can't draw, i have to use words, and they are...ambiguous.

Which is frustrating, since I want the artist to have some freedom to actually make this design work, but I fear being too descriptive will be stifling.

There is a very tight tension in my head between not wanting to be forgotten, and not wanting to be seen as annoyingly intrusive when asking to be included. Cause if I'm too annoying, disruptive, or obnoxious, I'll get purposefully left out.

That's what my brain is convinced of, because I was programmed to know that calling attention to yourself wasn't good, and often times was physically and emotionally dangerous/risky.

Stupid brain. Your friends actually do like you. Why can't you just believe that?

I'm having a really good time playing Astral Chain!

At a house. Might've been a party, might've been an orgy. Details lost after ending recharge cycle.

Important bit: Dude had pulled me into his lap, really seemed like he wanted me to be there. Then he proceeded to tell me I had no idea what to do with masculinity, and that is why I was failing as a black woman.

I REALLY did not need to hear that. i doubt myself enough as it is.

Good morning, City

@wim_v12e @polychrome Oh we can throw it back even further.

@polychrome Also, 80s/90s computing was housed in transparent plastic. I got to see my technology and it made me feel closer to it.

@Motodrachen Maybe. I dunno. If they ever combine, we might not be able to separate them.