🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime @kelseyhusky@awoo.space

@orrery @ElectricKeet Could be worse. It's really a blow to have spend your nation's GDP on a new stadium so you can host, and then your team doesn't win a single event #noceanics.

As a branding/design exercise, i am constantly impressed by how consistently good the team for MarbleLeage has been year after year. The updated logos for 2020 are super awesome!

https://imgur.com/a/zVQO1By

System Defender AXIOS Online. Operation: Productivity. All in-system units, please be advised: This sector is now a Gestalt maneuvering area. Your assistance with maintaining safe proximity distance is appreciated. Thank you.

@Motodrachen put it at the bottom of some housing for the artists that work there and start an arcology

@Motodrachen sounds like a blast!

@Motodrachen so basically and indoor RenFaire?

Standing down. Sleep well, dream sweetly.

I'm currently safe. But holy shit did I think really hard about stepping in front of my bus instead of trying to catch it.

I am the Cylon in the mirror. I am my own worst enemy, subverting my own defenses and countering my offenses at every turn.

Trapped inside my own head, slowly turning into orobourian torus endlessly looping to get away from the pain I'm causing myself.

Why am I so fucking broken? I don't want to hurt anymore. Why is this happening now?

I think it would probably be good if I fucked off from work for the day, though. Get some quality sobbing time just to try and clear out this emotional debt.

Don't think I'm gonna. Too much work i didn't do this whole week cause I was crying so much.

@Aradia I wish.

@Alistor I see you, and I care about you, friend.

@Heffboom_Konijn that is hella good news, hon!

@mawr 🤵 "*Trombone noises*"

@Motodrachen @mawr I'm holding together.

@Motodrachen @mawr I have considered it. I'm actually willing to explore. If anything just as another avenue for acquiring data and performing more tests to get a better handle on whatever is actually going on inside this black box of a brain.

I don't have a lot of overlap with what I know of plural systems. I don't really feel like I experience memory gaps, or feel out of control of my own frame.

I've been feeling lately like whatever idenity or persona i have/present is very, VERY fluidic and environmentally responsive. Like if you could turn code-switching into a personality, that's what I feel like. Its very Protean in here, but It all feels like ME, if that makes any sense.

In any event, please take all the time you need and do not rush your own processing trying to get to a place where you can help me. Please.