🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime @kelseyhusky@awoo.space

I think I looked kinda pretty wearing it though. And I think it was because in my own history, veils and headscarves like that have always been tracking-tagged "feminine"

I don't want to be disrespectful, or appropriative. Anyone who knows me probably gets that. But the people who don't know me VASTLY outnumber the people who do, and some of them are fucking scary and the worst of them are violent.

Getting some outside reassurance from... i dunno who would be an issuing authority on this. Maybe I should find a trans-accepting mosque and just ask.

Them: Are you a Muslin?

Me: No, just trans with chronic and debilitating self-esteem issues. This helps a little.

Them: You fucking freak *insert racist/TERF-y/bigoted/boomer rant* Take it off, and hold still while I beat you for being scary and damaging to my narrow-minded world view.

Me: I just came here to have a good time and I'm feeling so attacked right now.

One of the many things that arrived at Gateway during the holidays was a selection of patterned stretchy scarves that can be worn multiple ways. Face Mask, Do-rag, headband, neck warmer. They also work as a pretty serviceable hijab. The pattern of the one that ended up wrapped around my head isn't exactly... reverent or modest.

But, when I looked at myself in the mirror, I looked unequivocally feminine, even with the stubble that feels like is getting more out of control with every week, no matter how much I shave (bodies suck and are horrible. The level of maintenance h. sapiens requires is the biggest indictment of Intelligent Design ever, and you can @ me if you want, I'm right.)

So after staring at myself like a blind Narcissus who just had his sight restored, I started using my imagination. It went something like this: (cont)

@Oneironott Toyota Rudderthon.

This woman is my fucking hero.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wkCsnFRuwg

@foxwitch@queer.af A truck changed lanes into me 4 years ago. Sable's fairings and the upper subframe where her lights, mirrors, and dash were all damaged, and her front rim was bent too.

I kept her upright, but ended up with 3 broken bones in my foot.

I got replacement fairings, but they aren't the highest quality. Gettting OEM grade stuff is expensive as heck.

The wheel is simpler, but still needs some shop work to move the tired from the damaged rim to the good one. I can move the rotors myself. Honestly it wouldn't take much time to get her flying again, but effort, shame and just personal head demons get in the way sometimes. She's been a garage Queen in 3 different houses since the collision, hooked up to a battery tender.

Some days I just want to strap into an exo-frame, fire up the jump-jets and just fly.

I used to get that feeling riding my motorcycle Sable.

Been a long time since I felt that free.

@orrery If the results are repeatable, it's ready for release!

@Veladynee Good lift, Safe Landing!

@JulieSqveakaroo *sends you a bunch of huskybot hugs!*

A total surprise to feel excited about my clothes for once. I know I don't look like it, but that's because my face is stupid and doesn't show what I really feel

A friend from out of town took me to Torrid and would leave until they had bought me something to wear

The boots, jeans, and awesome coat are all new and I might just have a shot at this whole "being a cutie thing"

I dunno, I just felt good for a short bit and wanted to share.

It's your annual winter gift giving holiday. Under your presentation piece, is a large plastic box about the size of a sub-woofer made from a bright magenta-colored composite with glowing blue stripes highlighting each edge. The package is from Gateway Station Playsystems and is addressed directly to you!

Quick ask for my friends: Who is 3 Ninjas' years old?

@orrery Only after I had to start paying for my own existence.

1st: Everything here is strictly my opinion. Your results, mileage and experiences will vary, and that is totally valid.

2nd: There was some discrepancies between what i feel was the thematic intent vs. the on-screen execution.

3rd: I loved it.