wolfe but sad @wolfgang@awoo.space

@else that's... way more than i expected actually

@else out of curiousity: how many more episodes/movies came out since you started and you now need to catch up to? 🤔

it wouldn't help me DO the exercises, but it would at least help me REMEMBER which ones i should be doing?

i think i'm gonna make a poster to put on my bedroom wall

with the title "regular maintenance"

subtitle "if you don't schedule time off for maintenance, your equipment will schedule it for you"

and below that just a list of physiotherapy exercises i have to do regularly (and if i don't, weird aches start popping up again)

somethign something failing regime upcoming dictatorship uselessness of everything and even more so a project based on government-supplied-data like the one i'm currently working on etc etc etc

cause yknow whassapoint etc etc

we interrupt our regularly scheduled programming (literally programming) to bring you Suicidal Ideation!

whoops i made the mistake of looking at pictures of the band members oh well it was nice while it lasted

a few days ago i listened to a parquet courts album, with their lead singer doing his.... weird out of tune thing, with that very........ cishet sounding voice.....,, and,,,,, wow

to doctor said my eyes are ok 👍👍👍

it worked and i even managed to scrape myself off the bed enough time before i have to leave for my doctors appointment

it's 6:12 am and maybe i should wash the dishes and try that lying i bed hoping to ever fall asleep thing again

it might seem like an improvement that i usually do all my sleeping in one go instead of split up into several naps like back in 2019, but actually it's infinitely worse because i'm not only asleep during most office hours but also during most sunlight hours!!!!

good thing i have the creepy biometric data collecting computery device attached to my wrist at all times so i can objectively track exactly how fucked up my sleep schedule really is 🙃

ate a buncha cookies and made grilled cheese with ham at 5:30 am because i couldn't get myself to fall asleep at night

i wonder: did the allergy pills stop working or did i catch a cold from turning the ac 2 degrees lower than usual last night/morning/sleepytime

"worrying about things feels more fulfilling and productive than going to bed and having nightmares" -me, 4:44am

adhd paralysis sleep procrastination let's call it

it's 4:43 am and i am doing something that's halfway between sleep procrastination and a very mild panic attack

another thing they have in common is looking back at events all the way from my earliest memories and up until (present), and realizing "aaaaaahhhh ok so thaaaaaats why" then 2 seconds later "oh god that is fucked up" and the obligatory sinking feeling that comes with remembering those memories