Xurnami, Hyena-dragon @xurnami@awoo.space

I wish I had someone close to me in my bed right now to hug me and tell me that I'm going to be okay.

A couple more months until I have a house and that will be the case. It can't come sooner.

I wish there was someone in bed with me to help calm me down after that since now I'm super on edge.

I rarely remember my dreams but last night I went to a party with coworkers and had a couple of drinks. And then I have this. This is enough to have me totally swear off alcohol.

I just woke up from a dream. A very long one where I was at a furry con of some sort. I was trying to buy Grace a thing from a vendor which was mermaid themed. But they had the wrong stuff. They went to get it and then by the entrance someone came in with a gun and started shooting and I got hit. Last thoughts were “No, please” then black and then I woke up.

I heard the shooter’s name as https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anders_Behring_Breivik

@makyo @itsnero Thanks for letting me know I'm not alone in these thoughts. :)

The Chelsea Manning refrain of "We got this" is the most hopeful thing along those lines and a bunch of leftists tore her down for doing a thing one time.

I hate when I am reading a reasonable leftist take and then it quickly and without warning swings deeply into anxiety inducing discussions on things like climate change.

My trauma makes that hard to deal with and I have optimism that we will find a solution.

I wish, similar to what Contra said, that there was a more positive and optimistic leftism instead of one which consistently tells people to just not do things.

That kiwifarms exists is terrible. It should be removed from the internet. I don't care. It is a website infested with no-empathy people who ruin lives. Even the threads about people I dislike make me sick.

Never ever trust a sudden witch hunt as it tends to come from them these days.

@minimink This is awful. :(

I went from such an introvert to an extrovert with new clothing and hormones and such. And now I'm in my apartment alone with no one around, anxieties reaching new highs and just aaaagh.

@Angle I don't have any particular suggestions except to try and integrate more of the activitypub related specs too.

@Angle I'm interested.

@Soreth same.

I was doing some research about vlogging and was considering doing some myself but then I was like “no one would want to hear what I want to say or see my ugly face.”

@literorrery Since I was trying to remember the details, I looked to Graham from LRR and he has a video on this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GA-4U67ZhSk

As I somewhat remembered, it is something to hold the phone, a tripod to keep it in place, and a mic to get better sound quality from it and you have a vlogging setup.

It appears if you don't buy things too specifically you might be able to upgrade to a DSLR and use the same tripod and mic.

@Ratttz If you love your OP-1 so much, why don't you marry it? ;P

@literorrery My understanding that vlogging can be started with a good phone type device with some accessories for better audio and stabilization. The next step up is a DSLR of some form.

New transformation porn. At my website: https://xurnami.com/gallery/explicit/inalu-to-hyena-tf-by-fortune-fox/ Artist Upload: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27117132/ Direct image link: https://xurnami.com/img/gallery/explicit/inalu-to-hyena-tf-by-fortune-fox.png