Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

@duske Oh I had my time in the spotlight, once upon a time. :D Don't especially miss it! It's actually been really nice haivng Anthracite be the more visible one in the relationship. ^__^

@Thaminga Where's the lie though?

@duske Seriously, I hope it isn't weird to say, but it always gives me extra warm fuzzies when any of Anthracite's users sends me good wishes. Like, "Oh, right, I'm married to the respected proprietor of a Dragon Salon (in the old French sense of a place to hang out and chat). What did I do right, again?!?"

@Austin_Dern It took me all of 0.0005 seconds to recognize the irony in your tone there. XD

I lovehate Rush with a fiery intensity and if I knew Geddy I would good-naturedly give him shit EVERY SINGLE DAY FIRST THING IN THE MORNING for having ever been a Rand fan. XD

@Austin_Dern Oh lordy, please tell me you steered clear of the Contractual Obligations Album. :O

Not that there aren't plenty of other examples from the films and show...

it dawns on me after reading a couple Fox News articles about the Portland ICE protests that the most helpful thing Antifa can do for Biden and America right now is attack the shit out of him and make it clear, umm nope, he might fit a Trump cultist's idea of a far-leftist but he sure as fuck doesn't fit the far left's

let's remind those fuckers every day that there are far, far worse enemies than Biden out there -- and they is us -- and we're still coming for their fascist asses so they better PRAY for any little concession Joe gives 'em and be GRATEFUL

@kistaro yeah, sadly i was getting some results from Buproprion + Citalopram, but there were massive insurance complications last year and i wasn't able to ask for a dosage increase to see if I could get it the rest of the way >_<

my long term looks bright, though -- got all new snazzy insurance from work and while i still have to start from scratch, it should be a LOT easier getting this stuff dealt with this time around!

Loosely speaking, my life right now is all about "losing out on the safety of a mediocre amount of serotonin, in the pursuit of the joys of just a bit too much serotonin."

I miss the small regulated reserve of serotonin I had. It's really weird to go back to the flaky, twitchy state of mind I was in when last unmedicated *with the permission* of the only person who matters.

Short version: we finally pinned the slow death of my libido on my citalopram prescription and dammit I really missed not only fucking, but the imaginative drive I used to get from actually being able to feel anything at all from my kinks on an emotional level.

We'll see how it goes. For now, all I can say is we have our dealer showing up tomorrow, cannabis basically cures ALL the above issues and I'm still so angry it's not legal, it's much more effective when I'm off my other less actually helpful "meds", and I intend to enjoy the hell out of fucking Peggy in a dreamstate for as much of the weekend as possible, preferably in a headspace that's not "mine" vis a vis the human dullard on my driver's license.

Blocking Alexandra Erin (aka "smug orange hat lady who calls her followers 'babies'") was the smartest thing I've ever done on Twitter. It's a grand privilege and a joyous ceremony to block her again with each new account. She is the living avatar of everything I dislike about my own allies.

@LexYeen I mean, it's probably hot to someone who thinks the SNL sketch I was reacting to is really really edgy comedy. ;D

The total clogbrained inability of Normal People to look at a goth and tell the difference between "morbid self-hating depression" and "an affinity for dark romance" is all the justification goths ever needed for their own existence.

*flips through English-German dictionary for the "I miss you and want to say hi to you but I'm terrified if I do I'll find out you've since befriended every single person who hates me and I will be deservedly pelted with rotten garbage for all my past sins" entry*

@Soreth o/` Sad TERF! She's regretting her positions in life... o/`

<3 <3 <3

@001zlnv natch

my heaven will be:

* my ideal body, including scratchy feline claws
* a blackboard
* an antique victrola
* a wild man fischer 45
* a vuvuzela
* a copy of "sexing the body"
* a vocoder that makes me sound like Gilbert Gottfried
* a terf with sensitive hearing, sentenced to hell

@Austin_Dern do you just spin your ankles round and round sometimes just to squick people?

'cause i sure would :D

it's so brave of you to own us by playing that mediocre buggy game and ignore all of those valid social justice issues we raised about it

i wish you could see the ten minute standing ovation i am about to give you

in miniature

with both my middle fingers

Doing much better today, incidentally!

The short version is, a change has been made to my brain meds regimen, I didn't want to talk about it for Historical Reasons Pertaining To A Former Residence, and I was a right grumpy pain in the butt yesterday.

I got into a small tiff with Peg that neither of us wanted to be in, over the fact I couldn't find a safe low-stimulus place in the apartment to do my day job and wasted FOUR HOURS trying. My mood crashed due to the guilt and frustration at myself, and it just snowballed for most of the day.

But Peg handled it with CONSUMMATE draconic grace and patience, and ultimately just solved the problem by dragging me out and stuffing a much-needed pizza into my face. And today I feel fine.

@frameacloud I mean, I could invent scenarios where it could be manipulative if called upon to do so? My general rule of thumb is that *any* speech act can carry *any* emotion under the right circumstances and context.

But in general? Yeah, it just sounds like basic politeness and would... require extraordinary circumstances to read as "manipulative" just for a thank you.