Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

I post a lot of music that reflects my current mood. Here, let me post some music that reflects my #moodgoals instead...

https://freemusicarchive.org/music/Stealing_Orchestra/_Portugus_No_Gosto/stealingorchestra-09-for-me-formidable

CW: aggressively gloopy pseudo-Latin loungeplop; extremely high lipid content

@KitRedgrave Just be prepared to take some heat from nitwits who had a grudge against the original and have mistaken you for me! I'm only half-kidding, though one would HOPE most of them would have moved on by now! We're talking about something from, like, 2005 or so...

@zx3 ikr? *turns you down to Warm and hugs*

@KitRedgrave Puzzlebox is loooong defunct, and we were not by far the first project to take that name. Do what you like with it! Puzzlebox was always intended to be communal property anyhow. You have my blessing. The worst you will do is sow confusion, which is actually something I strongly support. ;D

@hystericempress Yeah, same here...

Oh, who am I kidding. I have a Russian troll at the verge of a rage-induced aneurysm over on Birdsite because I keep pointing out his errors.

I'm happy as a raccoon fang-deep in some asshole exterminator's hand. A taste of the otherworldly would be nice, but I'm making an agent of authoritarianism really really irritated and that's probably much closer to my true destiny upon your shitty little planet. 😘

@hystericempress Oh! I'm actually kinda happy to hear that, if it's working for you!

Seattle and NOLA have definitely taught me that weed should be a Sometimes Food. I had hit a REAL bad law of diminishing returned with it, and while I look forward to having it back in my life...

I needed that six-month tolerance break real, real, real, real bad. It's maybe TOO easy to get in Seattle...

@hystericempress *hugs* It's ok. At the very least, I have had some minor reasons to hope Tiny Lost Kitten Friend is OK out there, and something is happening in a couple of days that might give me a shot at finding a local dealer, which might end up unclogging my mana tubes real good...

Sis?

Sobriety is WEIRD. Don't ever try it. :O

But at least I have one glimmer of hope:

Sometime, when I least expect it... maybe even today... I will be a human with A COOKIE. And that's not great, but it's pretty good.

Come on, I'm trying to be positive here, people. :)

You know what I've felt like lately?

A... a... a PERSON.

I suspect most of you will need no further elaboration.

I miss getting a break from my selfhood now and then. I have never felt more like... some fat Italian dude who does map research for a living and pays his share of the rent and maybe has a small share in a comic.

I can't even get away from it in my dreams anymore. Just... one failed attempt to please someone after another.

god this song describes my mood perfectly today

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IX2MmYvaV6c

#anxiety #mundanity

@Leucrotta Some of my best lifelong experiences have been watching @anthracite, who is surprisingly good at it, interacting with kids—especially artsy kids. 😻

Honestly, though, death is too good for the lot of them. Inspired by a Twitter thread, you know what I'd REALLY like to do to them, if I were suddenly arbiter of this reality?

House the lot of them in a college dorm and make them play tournament Diplomacy against each other for the rest of their lives, and put it up on Youtube for our amusement.

Those of you who are familiar w/Diplomacy, can you IMAGINE Trump & his cronies playing?

Hilarious!</grunkle_stan>

And don't get my wrong. I would REALLY prefer to see Trump and the world he represents just die quietly, and let me age into somebody gentle, fat, and lazy. My _preferred_ attack will always be the Long Game of writing queer comics that will fuck up their kids the same way Saturday morning cartoons and sexy cheetah bois fucked me up. 😻

It's just... lord, the idea of dropping the pacifist pretense soothes my weary soul lately.

I mean, I mean it but I don't mean it, you know? The odds of this ever progressing past psychic violence are really, really low for me—so long as my parents and my partner are intact.

If that connection ever fails, I dunno. I can't promise you there won't come a point where I would be capable of doing some serious John Brown Lies Moldering shit.

To be real honest, I'm hoping I won't by far be the only one, if it comes to it.

This is one of those days where I'm mentally compiling lists of targets, juuuust in case society goes full Mad Max and shooting people in the face falls back into the realm of proper etiquette.

Not gonna lie—I'm drifting to the point where I see nothing except good manners standing in the way of taking out the whole Russian embassy. And nothing but good intel in the way of shooting people like Charlie Kirk and Ben Shapiro.

@kelseyhusky All my sympathies. Good luck out there, hun. *hug*

@001zlnv @JulieSqveakaroo Hey, it was a semi-accident! O:)

Still feeling a little bit of... ideation and a mild sense of generalized DOOM. There's no good reason for it—except maybe the political news, but that's making me feel more ornery than self-destructive.

Maybe losing our kitten buddy has upset my sense of the value of life and it's all survivors guilt. I dunno. Life is just not _fun_ right now, and I'm mourning a lot of lost sources of pleasure and wonder.

I'll get by. Raccoons are scrappers. Rabies & ennui are nbd.

The arcade was kinda neat, though—why the hell is my brain still obsessed with finding arcades in the MAME era!?—even though it was all tricked-out social media style and you needed points from some obscure MMO in order to do anything there. I at least managed to earn enough to eat at their cafe, and play some 12th-gen Pac Man multiplayer console. (Wish you could've been there, @JulieSqveakaroo!) Ended up flooding the whole place with a hidden maintenance pipe. Now THAT was fun.