Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

Siouxie, B-52s, Violent Femmes, Blondie, and fucking PYLON, right in a row?!?!

Yeah. This place gets me.

Came across this screenshot and it couldn't define my current mood about the world any better.

Yeah, um. I'm the one on the left, in case there was ever any doubt.

@001zlnv I mean, Patton has proven himself many times over... But yeah, he just doesn't seem at home in this role.

I've really tried, but Kinga, Max, and Synthia just aren't makin' it for me.

At the very least, I'm probably gonna continue my habit of skipping the host segments when I watch these.

I really do miss Joel. I would do anything to have one of them make a reference to Shake-A-Pudding or Marx Toys right now.

On Birdsite, I'm three days into a seven-day sentence for telling a Russian official I hope he gets a social disease. :> I am reminded of this every time I reflexively do so much as fave something over there.

But I'm very annoyed and disturbed to find that, now, every time I go to click something OVER HERE ON MASTO, I can feel my brain pitching a momentary guilt response, as if I'm about to do something I'm gonna get punished or rejected for.

I hate corporate social media with such a thorough and bleak passion right now. I feel sick in my heart every single day about the world it's created and all the subtle things it does to stifle our spirits.

@001zlnv I feel it's got some MAJOR timing and balance issues, but it's still insanely fun, innit!

@hystericempress No, yeah, this is EXACTLY what happened to me. Like, we've probably talked about how all the hypnosis stuff came STRAIGHT out of unprocessed separation anxiety and recurring nightmares about not being able to get at the "real" personalities of family members who had been Touched By Something Strange... I think that was my first flash on just how fucked up and fragile human identities were and it... yeah, you're you, you can fill in the rest.

@JulieSqveakaroo @001zlnv I had SO MANY weird little tics like that too! (Had... heh.... yeah. *looks out window, blows, and counts to three*)

@DifficultToTame Honestly? I focus on the negative here, and yeah I HAVE been mightily stressed over our still-unresolved Attic Cat Situation, but...

We're OK. :D I'm missing my old life in Seattle with a huge queer furry community something fierce, even if I feel like I was always kept at arms' length from it. But my finances are brighter than they've ever been, we have a safe and repeatable short-term Cat Rescue method for now, turns out I DID NOT HAVE COVID...

So really? The support and empathy delight me ( <3 ) but the fact I can even HAVE existental ennui is probably a sign that I'm far enough up the Hierarchy of Needs to be more or less all right. ;)

@Phorm The short version of my observation: while the illusion that the Cool People have Cool Lives all the time can be agonizingly strong, in my experience from the brief time I was even debatably a Cool Person I came to realize...

The actual Cool Moments come in bursts. Even if someone is Cool their whole life, the actual amount of time they spend doing Cool Things amounts to maybe a fortieth of their waking hours.

In other words, someone could *conceivably* have one Very Cool Year and have done as much Cool Stuff as anyone else. <3

@Phorm I do actually have an insight about this from my own checkered life that I think you might find helpful. Ironically, I also don't have the time *today*. But I really want to talk to you soon. <3

@001zlnv I DID actually fall off one and hit my head when I was 4-5. Let to a lifelong fear of heights and climbing but didn't do to seem hany arm.

Hey, who's got six paws, another new managerial-level responsibility at work, a performance bonus coming in May, and a $25 per paycheck bonus for home office expenses?!? THIS MANTICORE! ​​​

@001zlnv Tried. Failed. Fell off jungle gym and woke up here. ;>

@Leucrotta And he's petting his poodle Frunobulax
And staining sheet music with black
Singing G-Spot Tornado
On the phone to potatoes
While Dinah Moe's humming out back

(That's a quote from In The Mouth of Madness. Good film. Feels relevant. Wish it didn't. Wish I didn't feel so much like a Light That Failed today. Wish I didn't know deep down in my heart that if Sutter Cane showed up at my doorstep, I'd probably invite him right in, because any magic is better than none.)

"Trent stood at the edge of the rip, stared into the illimitable gulf of the unknown, the stygian world yawning blackly beyond. Trent's eyes refuse to close. He did not shriek, but the hideous unholy abominations shrieked for him as in the same second he saw them spill and tumble upward out of an enormous carrion black pit, choked with the gleaming white bones of countless unhallowed centuries. Trent began to back away from the rip as the army of unspeakable figures twilit by the glow from the bottomless pit came pouring at him toward our world."

I can't, Trent.

I read it to the end.

Thanks for the softball, Worldle, but I'm still mad about Nauru yesterday.

#Worldle #46 1/6 (100%)
🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩🎉
https://worldle.teuteuf.fr