Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

Best $10 I ever wasted.

No trace of abnormal tissue whatsoever.

Now I get to focus on pessimism about OTHER things, the things _I_ want to fret about! =^__~=

(On the other hand: dragon still warm and expresses disinterest in eating me; both Parallax casts still extremely gay; expecting a donut later. So life is, you know, sustainable here. :) )

I won't mince words, I'm in a hell of a bleak mood this morning. Friends in despair, oral cancer screening this morning, deep cleaning later in the week, reminders of long-term money woes, lingering feeling that I should just walk away from all my social contacts to spare them from my brokenness, reminder after reminder that human cognition is a shitshow, utter blueballs on the political front waiting for Trump to actually suffer for anything...

Just, dammit. Freeze me like Fry.

Play this at my funeral.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TfCgt84h614😿​

#sloshy #homestarrunner #shoegaze

#moodsnapshot after the guy at the 7-Eleven calls me "boss" for the fifteenth time

If you're not on a low-sodium diet, the secret to happiness is to put a little soy sauce and a little fish sauce in every savory dish that you cook, whether it sounds like it belongs there or not.

The tiger has CHosen to CHeer herself by CHewing on a CHeesy CHunk of CHeddar! Why? Because she's CHronically depressed! =^_____^=

(Honestly, I'm okay except for a touch of bronchitis and a frustrating logistical fuck-up, and the cheese was actually pretty damn good quality. :) )

This would be super-depressing... if Chris here weren't basically correct. #PandR

Rawr. Rawr meme rawr rawr. Rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr number rawr. *shrug* *nap*

I am currently embroiled in a civil, scholarly, heavily sourced, and convoluted debate over whether the Reichstag and the Bundestag are fundamentally the same location.

I had FUCKING BETTER not have a serious illness, because life is SO CLOSE TO GREAT otherwise. :p

Hey, um... who's the current Plush On Duty? I am actually doing a lot better than I was this morning, but I could really use a hug. =^_^=

(If you're all currently busy or getting laundered, it's just fine! :) )

(We take fangs seriously around here. =n.n= )

Okay, I've done enough research to finally reassure myself that there are a whole ton of other, non-scary explanations for the suspicious spot my dentist found. I'm doing good enough that I can shrug, say "OK, I really don't have enough information about to justify an existential crisis over this, let's just chill out and wait."

Thank you for putting up with that moment of panic. :)

A little further reading reveals there's a condition called "oral dysplasia" which can be a cancer precursor but isn't malignant in itself, and it looks a LOT like the little red dent I've got. It sounds like there's a serious chance this is "that thing we caught early enough that nothing actually bad will happen beyond some dental bills." That's at least the magic feather I needed to continue about my day... after a nice nap to drain out the last of the panic juice.

Right now I'm feeling shaken but strong. And REALLY wishing medical websites would talk more about all the things that might NOT be wrong with you. ;p I haven't been able to find much discussion of non-cancer possibilities, but given my past experience with WebMD Panic Syndrome, I'm assuming hundreds of them exist. :p

So yeah. I am probably passing along worry over absolutely nothing but I gotta dump this last little bit of anxiety here, be brave, and get back to work

I freaked myself out completely at first with the fact that, well, it is a little red sore, and it hasn't healed in about a month. But then I called home and talked to my mom a little for some reassurance, and...

Well, I'll level with you. It's tiny. It's literally smaller than the head of a pin. It's not even particularly raised, it's just a tiny little red divot. If I understand right, it's like Stage 0.0001 and they are profoundly likely to nail it.

So last week I broke down and got my first dental cleaning in over five years.

And one of the hygienists found a lump. They didn't test it then and there because I wasn't sure what lump they were talking about, so I didn't know if it had been there for not. But I finally found what I think they were talking about... and yeah, it's been there for about a month.

I scheduled an oral cancer screening for this Tuesday.

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#GrendelWasRight

Watched Grendel Grendel Grendel with Peg. Wonderful film, tragic that it was never particularly famous. Probably identified far, far, far too much with Grendel for it to be a healthy sign, but I can't pretend I didn't see a whole lot of myself in the big galoot. I mean, he's fierce but sensitive, I'm fierce but sensitive, he's a folk devil, I'm a folk devil, he likes hurting beardy violent guys, I like hurting beardy militant guys... I just don't get what everybody's problem with him was. =^__^=

You're maddening, you often terrify me, I could argue with you for hours about some of the things you post... but you're all just so god damned adorable anyhow. <3