Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

...she's not really involved directly in the things that were already upsetting me. I might need to get a lot of personal baggage about myself and my social circle sorted really fast, because if I have to deal with that on top of everything else... nothing good is going to come of it for anyone, including some family who really needs the best version of me around right now.

I need a lot of help patching up a lot of stuff, fast.

My Uncle Bob just died. I just got the phone call. Mom was wrecked.

I was already in bad shape over other stuff. Bob and I weren't super-close, and as far as that goes I'm okay. It's still hitting. But it's devastating my mom and stepdad, and I might have to be spending a lot of emotional resources on other people's sanity.

I don't have those resources right now. I don't know where to turn for help regaining them. Peg is doing all she can, but...

Aaaand... that would be a mood crash.

It was coming. I spent most of today stress-eating, running away from opportunities for social contact, sleeping, and trying to stuff down emotions better suited to another stage of my life.

Everything else just piles up and falls apart under the sense of futility and inadequacy. I feel like it's my moral obligation to go hide until Things Are OK & I'm OK, but every time I think there's progress it's an illusion.

I'm so bored & tired.

Hey, @Momentrabbit​?

She's home. <3 Pics soon as I get my desk presentable again. :)

#AntlerMom #jackalopes #questcompletion

https://awoo.space/media/KmbU8yXZX9Sivh4smII

source: Thomas Pynchon, _Gravity's Rainbow_

So, apparently Oblivaeon will be out very soon...

...and he has 10,000 HP. That is not, as they repeatedly emphasize in their preview materials, a typo.

I'm really looking forward to this expansion.

I also enjoy that my employers don't seem to mind me referring to things (e.g., say, McDonald's non-American store locators) as "dookie" or "hot garbage" in my review comments. :D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nxmXruqlkQk

#moodsnapshot
#perennials
#oldhippiecrap

Currently doing research on the French term "Chez" and its history in the restaurant industry.

God, I fucking love my job.

Got to pet a border collie mix for several minutes. He was leashed but unteathered, so I kept an eye on him until his owner peeked out from nearby.

Nothing else matters today.
💙​💚💛​🐾​

If our species doesn't develop some SERIOUS herd-scale memetic immunity fast, we are colossally fucked.

We got a ridiculous and obvious lie as "people in the Amazon know what a pharmacy is, and have made an informed decision that this bean is an adequate substitute" into the ideosphere.

All that happened is that a few hundred sketchy people repeated it. Now Serious Adults are repeating it as exciting truth--- because there's money in it.

I'm terrified.

And that's what I saw last night, an innocent-looking, appealing, and totally unsupported fact-like-entity grow up from a blurb from a health food scammer to a truism worthy of pushing a "new" product to people on a global scale. Nobody keeping it in check.

Subsistence crops will go unplanted so our yuppie aunts and uncles can drink this shit. The abuses in the cocoa industry will spread to a brand new plant. This'll MATTER to real people in real places.

And I know this might all seem like some trivial caviling from furry fandom's HL Mencken... but I don't need to draw the connection for you, do I?

This is the exact same process by which our political news is made. And our crime news. And our advertising.

There is absolutely nobody at the controls here. The captain is dead. The thing at the helm is a zombie. And nobody dares point it out.

Naturally, after my journey here, I was skeptical. I was ready to believe these were just elaborate fake sites, too, puffed up purely to max out the SEO of some health skcammer.

Nope, sadly. I looked into FONA. I looked into Anderson Partners Food Ingredient Marketing. They both seem to be legitimate companies, respected in the food industry.

Anderson Partners, in fact, has just made a massive deal with Kraft Foods. Ponder that.