the Hearth @Felthry@awoo.space

rrf

seeing some friends in a really bad mental state and want to help but

i don't know how to help, and i don't know if we have the spoons to help even if we did
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this is probably niche enough that literally no one is going to have an opinion if they even know what these numbers mean
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tanuklear
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nuclear rocket/jet engines are the worst great idea since the orion drive
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rrm. today was, well, not a very good day.
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we're also way too conflict averse to tell someone that we think what tehy did was wrong and don't have anywhere near enough spoons for that kind of thing anyway

just, rrg, why did this have to happen
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there are few things--maybe nothing at all--that terrify us more than the idea of losing good friends

and i'm very worried we're going to lose at least one friend over this
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we aren'te ven the ones who were directly hurt by this

we shouldn't be feeling this terrible, the ones who were hurt by this need the sympathy, not us
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we were the admins, we should have done something to prevent this happening

we should have seen the signs of this and done something to stop it

we never should have tried to run a chatroom
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this is a kind of emotional pain we've only felt maybe twice before and both previous times were traumatic

iiii don't know what to do here
what can we do
how do we fix things
how did we not realize things needed fixing before

why can't we do things right
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just feeling really terrible right now and don't know what to do to feel not-terrible

even if we can't fix the thing that made us feel terrible in the first place i want to figure out how to be able to do things today other than lay in bed
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i just feel really powerless here

i want to fix things but i don't know if things can even be fixed

i'm worried we're going to lose friends over this too
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feeling depressed now...

don't know what to do
want to just sleep and hope it goes away in the morning
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in case anyone is worried about this, i will state that everyone involved in this knows about it, so this isn't about you if you don't know the specific incident i'm talking about that happened this morning/last night
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why did we ever think we could run a discord server for a social group consisting of primarily people who have been abused in the past
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i just. want to make things right.

i hadn't realized how deep of a problem this was and has been for years, though we really should have seen it

i want to fix things, and i don't know how.
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