the Hearth @Felthry@awoo.space

we were the admins, we should have done something to prevent this happening

we should have seen the signs of this and done something to stop it

we never should have tried to run a chatroom
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this is a kind of emotional pain we've only felt maybe twice before and both previous times were traumatic

iiii don't know what to do here
what can we do
how do we fix things
how did we not realize things needed fixing before

why can't we do things right
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just feeling really terrible right now and don't know what to do to feel not-terrible

even if we can't fix the thing that made us feel terrible in the first place i want to figure out how to be able to do things today other than lay in bed
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i just feel really powerless here

i want to fix things but i don't know if things can even be fixed

i'm worried we're going to lose friends over this too
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feeling depressed now...

don't know what to do
want to just sleep and hope it goes away in the morning
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in case anyone is worried about this, i will state that everyone involved in this knows about it, so this isn't about you if you don't know the specific incident i'm talking about that happened this morning/last night
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why did we ever think we could run a discord server for a social group consisting of primarily people who have been abused in the past
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i just. want to make things right.

i hadn't realized how deep of a problem this was and has been for years, though we really should have seen it

i want to fix things, and i don't know how.
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you ever have one of those days where you want to curl up and just not be awake, hope that the morning turns out to have just been a nightmare or something?
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it's... really hard when some of our close friends have a falling out over something that happened years ago and that the ones who did the thing hadn't realized was even a problem.

i want to try to set things right. i don't know how, or if it's even possible
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in very tangentially related news, we got a new shelf and finished assembling it today, and anchored the top of it to the wall so it doesn't fall over

it's a media cabinet, meant for video games and stuff! something we've needed for a while considering the sheer size of our collection
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i wonder how densely you can pack drywall anchors and have the drywall not fall apart

just, a wall covered floor to ceiling in drywall anchors
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rrm. could use some hugs i think
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(yes, those *are* all pronounced the same way)
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and peanuts are neither pea nor nut
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you ever just think about how pineapples are neither pine nor apple
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consider: ottaurber
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