Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Okay, it’s drizzling and cool, it’s a good morning to listen to Fred McDowell.

so at the flea market I got an old Chivalry and Sorcery module and I haven't purchased anything so railroady since the last time I got an issue of Narrow Gauge and Shortline Gazette.

Doubtless the reason the wraiths help the PCs out of prison in THAT mandated encounter is that they split popcorn together while watching the NPCs fight earlier.

The author suggests after the Necromancer runs off (as the PCs aren't allowed to kill him), the GM might mandate that they resurrect the NPC wizard.

why do stars fall down from the sky
every time you walk by?
even our pups know that this is the age of Apocalypse

unironically feeling crushing sadness while listening to Coldplay's "The Scientist."

Cheech and Chong's The Matrix.

TEST YOUR MIGHT
TEST YOUR MIGHT
TEST YOUR MIGHT

DRAINO. LU XUN. RAYMOND. JOHNNY CASH. SUB-STANDARD. SONAR. MORTAL KOMBAT!
* throws crescent kicks *

I have a beer because today was long, I have pork with mandarin sauce because I was running errands with nobody else near Xing Yuan which my housemates don't really dig, and I have the Smashing Pumpkins and Presidents of the USA because I'm old.

PEACHES COME FROM A CAN!
THEY WERE PUT THERE BY A MAN
IN A FACTORY DOWNTOWN
IF I HAD MY LITTLE WAY
I'D EAT PEACHES EVERYDAY
SUN-SOAKED BULGES IN THE SHADE!

The Purge and what all assumes that if everything were legal for a time it’d be incredibly violent but 1) if humans can do *anything* they’re as likely to fuck, take whatever substances are available and invent religions as they are to beat heads and 2) I fit into this and would probably just indulge in public nudity, which isn’t good preparation for violence but if you can do anything at all why wear pants?

and now my motivation plunges through the floor. Schostakovich Sym 7 didn’t help (weirdly I feel it must’ve influenced Sato Masaru and Bernard Herrmann); swapping to the 9th. A little poking to see why it’s this short suggests it’s one of those things Schostakovich enjoyed writing and which the establishment officially hated before Stalin died.

Something I really liked is the implication nobody in the show was all that bad. The deer kisses up in part because she’s honestly a cheerleader and wants the whole department to have it easier, space cadet from Sales has this secret life as a gardener, Mr. Ton is an incredibly competent accountant who really busts ass when needed. There’s only 3 characters where you don’t get to see redeeming features and since everyone else isn’t completely terrible maybe they’re okay too.

☠️

TO ALL THOSE
WHO STAND IN THE WAY OF FREEDOM
FOR WORKING PEOPLE

Feeling wretched enough to be listening to the Schostakovich 11 all the way through.

Thot;

By definition “everything in my life has led up to this moment,” and “I could die at any moment” though this is less dramatic than it sounds and a lot of those moments are in the shower, on the pot, fapping, stuffing food in my face, in traffic, stuck at day jobs etc. If this is so then the ideal is to be a relatively okay person so my last actions at least won’t be completely awful.

the whole thing is complicated by how online you're never far from a mixed reception to a wide range of other peoples' technical skills and imagination.

It is terribly easy here to imagine other people as valued and confident, which is of course what I want for myself (and which isn't actually about skill or imagination. Like saying "I'd like pie!" without noticing that when I want apple pie, it's not pecan pie).

Is what I do valid and good? A bad intersection of;

* genuine desire to improve (rationally, shouldn't I start selling myself anyway, since my dissatisfaction's unlikely to go away?)

* childhood-programmed fears that no matter what I do, it won't be good enough (esp since drawings are better but I haven't been painting)

* the question "am I good enough for people to pay me, if so can I get enough, can I deal with the resulting stress?" brought on by facing another week of Day Job.

"gee that looks awesome" they said, before reading the DA description about how it was a MtG card.

idk, I'm at some sort of weird lack of confidence about where my art is going, prompted in part by making better stuff.

@Earthshine it was pretty much inevitable that Tacklebox would do Haida fanart. I'd say it's weird there's no fanart of the yoga instructor, but half of all Gay furry porn is basically that character anyway.

into the sun we climb
climb, and our wings will burn white
everyone's strapped in tight, we'll ride it out,
I'll be coming home next year

(personal song interpretation; he won't, in fact, come home next year. Nor ever.)