Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Okay that kicks it. Punk IS dead.

Damnit, I spend so much time worrying I fucked up, you’d think I’d be more sanguine when I actually do fuck up.

and then the Avengers went back in time and pointed out to Thanos that if he's willing to sacrifice his daughter, the thing he *thinks* he loves most in the universe, then what he *actually* loves most in the universe is the idea of saving resources by killing half of everyone, and if he wants that stone, he needs to give up on the idea.

Happy birthday @kelseyhusky! (assuming I can't just wander over and say it rn)

Omg Scott Pruitt RESIGNED? KICK ASS!

https://youtu.be/zLbFpAMITmA

wooo, replied to job hunt email, sent out a batch of job applications, called senators about a judicial nominee, signed some petitions, gonna step away from it and make myself get going.

Dear Secretary Zinke, I thought I had stuff to say to you about Alaskan wildlife management policies but actually? Get bent you fucking petty fascist earth rapist. Resign. Get an actual company that will provide PR with power instead of your fucking little buddies. I hate you.

At some point this vacation became reconnaissance in force to figure out whether I could make a go of it around Seattle.

I think I was sort of hoping for Seattle to be overwhelming external confirmation that I need to move and move now. Instead, this is really nice - nicer than the Bay Area. My decision is still very much caught up in "well this is great but could I afford to do it?" And that gets into money, a subject where I'm INCREDIBLY chickenshit.

At some point this vacation became reconnaissance in force to figure out whether I could make a go of it around Seattle.

I think I was sort of hoping for Seattle to be overwhelming external confirmation that I need to move and move now. Instead, this is really nice - nicer than the Bay Area. My decision is still very much caught up in "well this is great but could I afford to do it?" And that gets into money, a subject where I'm notoriously chickenshit.

Lyon's Den turns out to be a coffee shop I've visited with an ex-; it's really nice, but a little less convenient to where I'd move, as a coffee shop to plonk down and grind out job applications, etc (which is what I'm doing now).

It's now 2300 hours here in the middle of the Tet Offensive. #whaBOOM #bang #BANG #THUMP

Disheveled from the French “cheval,” implying someone whose appearance has been messy thanks to being unhorsed In plate armor.

And what gets me here is, wires got crossed and I made a dumb mistake, which is NOT what I’m feeling shitty about; it’s all feeling I’m not what society values and I have nothing to offer a significant other. This is shitty serotonin reuptake as much as anything.

Just feeling really broken and futureless right now. I don’t do much all that well and just feel like walls are closing in. If something actively bad happened I think I’d feel vaguely suicidal tbh, but nothing that bad has happened yet.

Just... Seattle was very much home for a year and then scrabbling for work and being largely isolated really made it not home. Then the Bay Area was home until things really fell apart with Es and all the other everything’s closing, everything’s about wanted people ramped up at once.

If I move back here, how long does it get to be home again? How long for anywhere? Because the Bay Area isn’t home, it’s just a trap.

I never thought I’d be back here. I never thought I’d have mixed feelings about that.

Okay current plans are to go visit Green Lake or Cap Hill - probably the former due to timing. Walk, get some coffee, draw maybe. Poke me if y’like!

@emanate did you want to meet up for lunch or just company today? If you’re on shift.

“... like you check his Batphone and it’s all full of photos of bats sleeping or eating with little heart stickers. I think it’s Batman Year One where he realizes the kigu doesn’t scare criminals so he swaps fetishes and goes for vinyl instead.”

“Marvel heroes always have tragic origins as opposed to DC, where you just show up as an Ancient Greek princess and okay cool.”
“There’s Superman’s origin story.”
“Okay so pogroms wipe out his schtetl, and his folks send him to America where he tries to pass as white.”
“There’s Batman. He’s like MY PARENTS ARE DEAD AND ALSO I HATE BATS SO I DRESS AS ONE.”
“He does it cause other people hate bats. He’s cool with bats...”