Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

DON'T BE TOLD WHAT YOU WANT
DON'T BE TOLD WHAT YOU NEED
THERE'S NO FUTURE, NO FUTURE, NO FUTURE FOR YOU!
GOD SAVE THE QUEEN
WE MEAN IT MAN
WE LOVE OUR QUEEN
GOD SAVES

#oi #HandsUpWhoVotedBrexit

why must the youth fight against themselves?
government leavin' the youth on the shelf.
THIS PLACE IS COMING LIKE A GHOST TOWN
no job to be found in this country
CAN'T GO ON NO MORE
people gettin' angry

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doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle

WHATEVER HAPPENED TO LEON TROTSKY
HE GOT AN ICEPICK THAT MADE IS EARS BURN
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO DEAR OLD LENIN
THE GREAT ELMYR A AND SANCHO PANZA
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE HEROES?
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE HEROES?

*throws heavy objects*

Oh great NOW I find my bondage gear from years ago? I think I wore this bridle exactly once.

helloooo hypervigilence, where'd you come from?

Not great #drawings today, trying to figure out more connections through an overall pose, and to work out facial feature placement. Which I think is actual progress for someone staving off suicidal ideation.

I did some work on trying to find more references and reach out to an existing reference; got lost on Twitter for a while, looking for cute cat photos, but ran into some really upsetting stuff; researched dietary stuff.

I am going to try drawing, I worry I spend too much time trying to improve drawing but professional work is almost all about beautiful paintings; I worry I'm on the wrong course.

everyone always makes HAR HAR CBT jokes but what I wanna know is what kinks can we confuse with DBT and ACT.

Damnit. Two of my references left companies they were with, one "doesn't feel comfortable giving a reference" and one just isn't available. This makes me feel like it's my fault, that I'm a flakey worthless person, that I will never be officially allowed to be not flakey and worthless. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

oh huh. I'm insomniac and browsing DeviantArt, and someone titled their thing No More Heroes, so that's a song cue. Checking lyrics gets me that it's not "Almira" as I thought but "Elmyr-a." It's actually a reference to a noteworthy art forger (Elmyr de Hory) rather than an opera character.

I love how reading about anything possibly health related online gets you to "talk to your doctor." some of us don't belong to the valued people in this society, y'know; we're supposed to die early and we're supposed to die miserable.

@kobold added you to an alternate Masto account if you were wondering about the follow request!

Coco the day after a friend’s memorial and a year after a friend passed while stressing was perhaps not a bright idea.

There it is, the urge to apologize to the entire world repeatedly.

Perhaps this wasn’t the best choice of movie today. Oops.

@kelseyhusky oh gah Con Air was on at the pizza place I’m at with @Earthshine AND IT WAS BRILLIANT. Now Rush Hour 2 is on and it’s vaguely good sadly

There are basically only two reasons to continue living but they’re pretty compelling reasons. Thoughts like this is what I’ve been trying to climb out of this morning.

These things they go away
Replaced by every day
Night swimming, remembering that night
September’s coming soon
Pining for the moon
And what if there were two, side by side in orbit around the fairest sun?

I just couldn’t sleep. Really dismal shit is running in my head- the most optimistic is stuff like if I were lucky enough to die today, would there be more than 1-3 people outside of the Seattle area who’d care? My parents sure wouldn’t give a clusterfuck. At some level I know these are just thoughts, just feelings and very transient, but it’s not stopping them.