-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space

Y'all don't exactly seem to mind though

Postfurry still astounds me and my ADD apparently won't let my shut up about how amazing this and my life is.
That and the fact that I'm still getting used to how fucking magical my life is now, sometimes in some literal sense.

I'm the girl who stumbled down a winding path and meet magical creatures and discovered she is one, but I've latched onto it and won't shut up about how awesome it is that this is possible.

I'm still claiming what i want out of life and that was a huge theme of my therapy session yesterday.
I'm finally at this point where i am seeing what -I-want out of life, and that i am deserving of having such things.
Still getting my imagination to what it once was. My sense of adventure and whimsy. Integrating whimsy and imagination to make my qualia a more colorful one. Spirituality, and finding my path amidst others.

I'm still on this path of reclaiming the path i strayed from. Or was pushed from. I feel like folks around me there GET that and being in a culture that doesn't just say "you are what you are inside" but makes casually integrated steps so that you remember that and truly believe it.
I could gush about all the things about postfurry-as-a-group culture and i think someday i honestly will do it in longer, edited form.

I keep remembering how amazing it was to see so many folks passingly commenting positively on my tail and how many rubs i got to it and how i could tell even when i wasn't particularly looking.
I tried to do the same but my sense of otherly things is still dulled compared to my days of seeing near everyone i came across as furries ^^'

I am sorry i haven't offered much word of support or anything of the like. I have felt bits of the pain by empathy, and i am so sorry for all of your loss. Your response and love give me hope, and i love you all very much

As it turns out, @emanate is incredibly tactile and i just… am still speechess at what just happened, and i don't have the words.

Long story short i feel/felt my phantom webs and tail more vividly than i ever have. It felt REAL asside from the fact that it wasnt there. No exaggeration.
And its still here as im drifting off and just
I'm in awe. I didnt know that this level of feeling was possible.

Anyway I cried a little and am still really emotional and in awe.

Walking around the city and seeing so much casually accepted queerness is amazing. Not getting stared at wherever i go is amazing. Being able to present as Me without this stares and awkward conversation breaks or stress is amazing

I get that I'm seeing it from someone visiting. But… its nice. I'm not… I'm not afraid here

I feared i was blowing this out of proportion and putting this tribe, city, and everything on a pedestal but now that I'm here experiencing it i see it realistically and I'm… yup still very much in love with this place and this community.

First day was quiet recovery followed by spontaneously fucking raving in a warehouse with @KawaSeadrake and @starkatt
This trip is amazing so far and everything has been IMMENSELY fluid. It feels like I've known everyone for so so many years and I'm returning home.
It has made me emotional how many folks have said "welcome home" and i just… gods.

Day 0 (yesterday) i flew out. It was smooth but long. I surprised @emanate with this picture drawn by my good local friend Blu. We kissed a lot. It was mostly kissing. I can't stop kissing this bird.
https://awoo.space/media/NuE_4oT2mcImh1IVF60