Color Theory
Red core because Red: Freedom, passion, the inner fire (Dragon!)
Blue mixed in because Thought: Forethought, patience, understanding
Green mixed in because Wisdom: Listening to the self, living harmoniously, understanding the shape of the world
Red-Blue for creativity and directed passion.
Red-Green to be true to the self.
Blue-Green for exploration and shaping of the self and the world.
transfeels (~~)
If I'd come in to the right world as the right gender and the right species, maybe I'd never even have had the silver fire to begin with. Maybe it would have been there but I never would have found it.
Maybe it still would burn as brightly.
Maybe it's a silly question.
transfeels (~~~)
Fuck if I know. I'm some kind of girldrake, some kind of enby dragoness, somewhere just outside of all the lines everybody draws. I got dreams that can't ever be answered, and hopes that can. And strength and flaws and wreckage and power and mystery and grace and ineptitude and some kind of raging paradox that makes me all that I am.
I don't know what that makes me.
Maybe just me.
transfeels (~~)
Species, gender... all I have wanted was to express myself as truly as I can, to let the fire within illuminate without. To wander boundless and free, without lack. Without wishing it were possible to feel comfortable in myself. Without hiding my hands from my own view because I couldn't stand seeing them. Without the lurking pain that pounces whenever I think of it.
But without all that, I wouldn't be me.
transfeels (~~)
Everything I've suffered through has shaped me. Why do I feel like I would have been lesser without all these insurmountable obstacles? Why is it that "solving" the problem at its root and having always been in the right body would annul me, when all I have ever wanted is to satisfy this desperate desire to be what I'm supposed to be inside?
This world will never allow me the thing I most want. But because of that I am free at the same time that I am confined.
transfeels (~~)
I'll never know what it would have been to be hatched and grow up right, without species dysphoria looming over me all my life. What would it have been like to look down at my hands and see scales and be comforted? What would it have been to live with never suffering dysphoria? I've struggled all my life, all my days, dealing with never fitting and never knowing.
What the hell would it have been like to have fit in and had a place? To have belonged in my own hide all this time?
transfeels (~~)
When did it all start? Birth, infancy, childhood, adolescence? It was already a seed starting to sprout by my teenage years. What would have been different if I had been assigned F at birth? Would I be looking over the fence towards M before slipping into NB? Or would I just have stayed F and left it at that, because it fit?
Don't even get me started on the species stuff.
Rare coastal dragoness, often found by sunny sea cliffs. Nonbinary but fairly femme-leaning. If you're under 18 don't follow.