Crinklewott 💕 @thingywott@awoo.space

@roxy it's Very Bayonetta in a lot of ways, which is both really fun, but also really funny

listening to asmr in japanese for auditory practice almost seems like cheating

(don't mind me editing tags into about a billion posts so that i can find them without digging again)

@SirTapTap oh yeah! i mostly wanted to bring it up because i think the lack of qrts actually makes people less inclined to use its alternatives

which miiight seem paradoxical, but dunk screenshots were generally used to get around specific limitations about qrts, by people who were used to using qrts normally!

but when something doesn't exist normally as a core concept in the space you occupy, it seems like all of its derivatives become less common too

@SirTapTap yeaaaah, this is actually explicitly why qrts were briefly considered, but then ultimately not implemented here

having the ability to airdrop something along with your final word about the thing suuuper-encourages boosting the visibility of things that, well, ain't great

and, i mean, you can still link posts with your commentary! but engaging with what lives underneath is opt-in now, so it ends up being used very differently

it's no exaggeration to say that being abdl is the source of a huge number of positive traits that i have now that make me who i am

ones that i wouldn't trade anything for~

and for all the interpersonal-kryptonite i worried it could become, it also has indirectly informed the way i interact with others to such an enormous degree that i feel has had the opposite effect; making me legitimately a better person

which makes me happy too!

compare that to now, where i legitimately feel lucky that i'm abdl!

• i have a pretty-much-unlimited well of passive happiness in a place i wouldn't normally because of it
• it acted like a shield towards the Not Great views surrounding me growing up--since i was squarely outside their toxic status quo
• it's a pretty dang good filter for removing people from my circles who would cause my other friends to quash their own quirks

but, also!

• it cute (imo)

i don't know what i expected

them: "so, you are saying you like to feel cute and be comfortable in platonic settings by wearing underwear you like?"
me: y-yes
them: "get out of here, that's too hardcore, man. friendship over"

i legit thought i would be ostracized

and while there are definitely people who can be icked out by this kind of thing (which is why i cw!) it's almost funny how distorted my perception was

there probably aren't many peeps who follow me that don't already know, but juuust in case, i may as well elaborate!

tl;dr - i'm abdl, which for me means i'm someone who thinks diapers are cute, and having them as a part of my self-image makes me happier overall~

combine this with being asexual, and essentially the vibes i like the most are just comfy and cozy ones!

and i mean, yeah! it is pretty unusual–but i definitely overestimated how much it ire it would draw

thinking about how much i worried about people learning that i liked something weird compared to the reactions i actually got when i confided in them

almost universally, the reactions i got were "wait, that's it??"

it's like they were disappointed it wasn't something wilder, and that i just spent so much emotional energy on the most innocent thing imaginable

@monorail gosh, i could hardly imagine words like that coming from a space where you can already comfortably exist--much less coming from everyone simultaneously in said space

like, that would even be true of pretty much any space that has any degree of empathy for people different than them outside of the status quo

plus like, plurality isn't hyper-uncommon either! so some of them may already have already heard about it too~

@monorail you've got this!

i know it might feel scary to introduce something like this to people who don't know about it--but these are already people who like you~ ^^