Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

@mmsword That would be awesome -- we'll chat about some of this stuff when I see ya, it's... complicated. :) But I REALLY appreciate the looking in on me, it did improve my mood a bunch. FWIW, last night's dreams were about getting inducted into a weird coven, so I guess that's an improvement? :D

is it weird that some of my plushies are trans?

it never dawned on me before that it could be weird :)

@Leucrotta I was really glad to see you in town, had a great time! <3

@troodon <3 <3 <3

I think I figured out part of the equation, too: the community feels dead, but the people are still individually amazing and kind and that's weird but acceptable and I'm grateful for it. You, particularly, have been just awesome. *hug*

I don't want to pretend I'm the only one who suffered this year, not the only one by far nor the only one who suffered because of *my* fuckups. But it is particularly frustrating having your old life and sense of self basically sundered by offenses you still don't even fully *understand*. An action item here, at least-- some guidance as to what the hell I'm still doing wrong and what, if anything, I can do to fix it-- would have been helpful at any point. I dunno, no blame, am just lost.

The dominant mood of today: "Nothin' left to see here, folks." Binging on Bojack Season 5 probably didn't help much, but really what I could use is an end to the recurring dreams in which I can't get anybody I know to still speak to me. In general... that "what are you still doing here, you toxic old fart" sensation is overwhelming today and I'm honestly not sure what the fuck to do about it besides be stoic, put my head down, work on Parallax, and get the hell outta Dodge like fate demands.

@mmsword I can just imagine the sort of association Beatrice stirs up for you... *hug*

@mona@cybre.space Yeah, that's one of the more valid criticisms of the show that I've seen -- they're teasing out any hope of redemption for him REALLY badly.

@mona@cybre.space I'd tell most people if they didn't like it after S1, keep watching, but if they still didn't like it after S2, more of it probably isn't going to help their opinion of it any.

@mona@cybre.space I liked it but isounds like you didn't care much for it? It's grueling, no denying it, and it's a relentlessly grim show, but tbh I found it cathartic, well-written, and sometimes truly brilliantly structured. I wouldn't blame anyone for noping out of the content, though, 'cause it's like Eeyore got a sitcom and brought his therapy group. That part of the show will NEVER let up, and one of its weaknesses is that this does become a formulaic cycle.

oh fuuuuck the eulogy episode D:

i should call my mom and thank her for resembling none of that

@anthracite It's like complaining that house parties are no good compared to sketchy nightclubs, because nobody will let you get away with pissing on the floor.

@tastymochafox Yeah, I've had to interrupt my binge like three times now because an episode was... just... too much, man. o_o

This is basically what my anxiety disorder is like. 30 years of this running constantly. Including the ending. ^__^

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4-iajSwcMs

@troodon 😻​

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/52-hertz_whale

#shortdurationpersonalsavior

"No, no, Puff was just the stage name he took when he auditioned with Murakami Wolf Swensen. His real name was Stanislav Pugf-Kovács."

#OutOfContextTheater
#ShitEnmerkarSays

@kel@dragon.style I sympathize -- I keep trying to put a "heavy" in my system, but the Revolving Door Of Villainy/Heroism in my head is even faster than the ones in Buffy, SU, and MLP. =u_u=

Even *I* mostly started out as a foil who existed largely to annoy/chew @acetone_kitten's mooncat boi. Sort of a giant stripey pack of kids to their cybersocialist Trix Rabbit.

Fair warning: when a Martian tiger tells you Mars is full of love, this is basically what we mean.

#VisitMars
#ArriveSeasoned

OH THANK FUCKING GOD LAETITIA SADIER OF STEREOLAB HAS NOT GONE RIGHT WING.

She apparently got roasted for having positive things to say about Jordan Peterson recently, and I was really afraid we'd lost her. But her website has a pretty clear denunciation, focusing on his hatred of neo-Marxists and "SJWs."

I haven't read much about it, yet, but I'm guessing she got to his whitewashed self-helpey stuff first, fell for the trap and didn't see the big deal. I can forgive that.