Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

big ol flabdassin gropdangin flarfnarblin mood

fuck it, i'm gonna watch vincent price chew some scenery -- dr phibes it is

@arilin I just hate how much it all feels like watching history repeat itself in realtime. This is almost exactly the kind of dumb fractious purist stuff that ruined our chances in the 60s and 70s... not to mention Occupy Wall Street.

@Phorm Oh, believe me, I have no plans to do otherwise. I'm depressed and anxious, but it's the "I like a lot of the stuff I have, including the people, and I have a lot to lose" kind of anxiety. I ain't throwing any of this away unless someone comes and takes it from me.

@Phorm The main thing you can do is to keep hanging out with us and being a genie, honestly. Helps a little bit every single day. <3

yes i know i had two quotes of the day

what, you never seen a restaurant with two specials before?

@JulieSqveakaroo Haha, I have HUGE nostalgia for that video, and seeing it namechecked by a friend did really make me smile just now. Thanks, roo. <3

Iiiincidentally, have you ever seen the old MTV Weird Al specials, and if not and you're interested... got a way for me to share some really big files? (I can set up Dropbox again, there was a reason I stopped using it but it's been so long I can't recall what it was...)

That's where I saw this originally. Unsurprisingly, Weird Al is a REALLY REALLY GOOD VJ. Most of his picks aren't even "comedy music," just pop songs with engagingly weird videos...

(this song is dedicated to the Earnest Young Leftist who just trashed John Oliver on my timeline because anything produced by a corporation is icky and evil)

o/` The love of the perfect destroys the mere good
o/` Just because you can doesn't mean you really should
o/` The race for the pure rarely goes very well
o/` But you don't know that
o/` Cause you're a zoomer
o/` And you're naive as fucking hell

@JulieSqveakaroo Yeah. Don't even know where to start. I might even have the energy to invest, just no earthly clue where or how.

More than anything right now I wish someone else would come along and play Mike Callahan for me. (i.e. just START SOMETHING, ANYTHING and let me just be a participant and guest) But I don't think anything like, say, Tapestries or Puzzlebox can ever be created again, not in this cultural and informational environment.

@JulieSqveakaroo let me answer your very valid question indirectly :)

@anthracite That works too! Remind me to feed some kitties when you get back! <3

"He would enjoy the spectacle in ways none of his darling brothers could, and the majesty of the great and secret miseries to come made him want to cry with gratitude."

@anthracite Yay, you headed home soon then? <3

A distant friend and former partner of mine once told me early in our relationship that I had "the fires from Dimension X" in my eyes when I started off on a flight of fancy.

I feel like the fires are out, the fuel is no longer found in this plane of existence, and the portal is closed.

I feel like Major Tom: just stranded, far out of reach of anything that could sustain me besides a vague sense of the wonder and terror of the world.

New Orleans is nice, but today it's not feeling like home. Home needs more than one other person in it. Home needs someone *else* who cares about you within a 1,000 mile radius.

The world just seems big and scary today, with less and less of a protective film between me and Lasting Existential Despair every year.

I need to find a way to really reconnect with people and dispel the idea that it's quiet these days because I'm a terrible person who fucked everything up. I haven't had a really good heavy conversation about feelings with someone in so long. I have absolutely no idea how to do this on this godawful corporatized nightmare of an Internet.

I love Peg so much, but she's really not the sort of person who needs or enjoys that kind of sentimentality. I feel like if anything I'm draining her a little when I go there.

I dunno. I don't exactly miss Seattle but I miss having at least had the illusion of some community and some support in the event that the Big One hits. I miss having people near. I guess everyone's in the same boat right now even their friends are physically nearby.

I just feel like I've run thru the last phase of my life where I had *huggable* friends, or confidants of any type. There are social contacts waiting here in NOLA for when things are sorted... but as yet no real *friends* and no major prospects for such.

Especially 'cause I'm just so tired and jaded. I don't know if I can summon the remnants Kincaid and turn on the charm ever again. I can't pretend I don't know I've hurt people and generally fucked up a lot of what I touched.

I dunno. I wanted to end on something positive 'cause this is all making it sound a lot more dire than it is. But yeah, you peel off a couple layers of cats and work and TV and dragon snuggles and this is what there is. *shrug* There ain't much else.

this is today's #moodsnapshot, but oddly, i'm pretty sure i'm the little kid

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c8kUgHsKWJc

"[The 'Zoo' in 'Zootopia'] works, though, because the idea of a utopia is so absurd, it makes sense that creatures who live in cages would consider themselves a perfect society." -- Paul F Tompkins as Werner Herzog, Comedy Bang Bang ep. 218

@LexYeen Just left Rep. Evans a semi-polite voice mail explaining why I am Very, Very Disappointed In You For This.

Two more:

1) latex hoods with twintail or topknot sleeves
2) "cosflation" -- character cosplay done entirely with absurdly over inflated vinyl

Oh, and a bonus one so I'm one ahead of quota:
3) "Kooky Spooks" costumes (https://www.google.com/search?q=kooky+spooks&rlz=1C1CHBD_enUS873US881&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjs6Iu71oDvAhVIIqwKHbNMC0EQ_AUoAnoECBQQBA&biw=1016&bih=524)