Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

@Phorm obligatory media

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cngtKI-2xzs

@Phorm thanks, harv XD

@mawr FOR CRYING OUT LOUD DON'T DO IT!

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https://imgur.com/gallery/bvQm93N

I should get a little dead bird tattoo every time I get tossed in Twitter Jail for something I'm very proud of. XD

@monsterblue Sure! I am not in a regular Discord habit but at this point I'm willing to adopt it for some #%!$!@# social contact. :D

@anthracite @Soreth True, but the Laundry novels are not *explicitly centered* around the sacrifice of financial executives to demons, nor to carnivorous beasts kept and raised explicitly for the purpose. ^____^ I'm angling for something less Charlie Stross and more Belko Experiment. >:D

@Phorm I've been fending off those same kind of feelings for a couple of days. *hug*

@Soreth @anthracite Maybe it does, maybe it doesn't. But you've put me very much in the mood to read an urban fantasy-thriller where that's PRECISELY what it means. :D

I.

REGRET.

ABSOLUTELY.

GODDAMN.

NOTHING.

You know how that article just dropped about reputation scammers, sites that you can pay a fee to "remove" (temporarily) slanderous posts that it turns out they themselves put up in the first place?

It got me thinking. You know what service I'd really love to see somehow? Kinda the opposite: you pay the service and they root out every single person on the Internet who likes you, and you like right back, but has been afraid to talk to you because they think you hate them.

Maybe it's too much to even hope that I have any of those left. I can't even begin to convince myself everyone who hasn't contacted me in the last year didn't just... kinda figure out what I'm really like and rightly bail on me. Shrug.

And the cost of failure is just so high if you try to reach out to someone and find out you were RIGHT that they hate you. Or worse, they don't like you but are too polite not to pretend things are fine.

I would pay so much money to have someone else do the reaching out FOR me. ;___;

@eredien That sounds amazing. Your coastal state or mine? :D (It might be a tad difficult to get Peg to leave the sunbelt...)

This is that Bob Odenkirk action thriller. It's very similar to John Wick. It left me feeling very indulged yet very hollow.

As noted over on Birdsite, you could have easily replaced every female bystander and every non-gun-wielding family member with a cardboard standee and it wouldn't have made much difference.

I started losing patience about a half-hour in with how unrealistic everybody's reactions felt to this armed maniac running around, especially his wife just... kinda rolling with the fact her husband essentially brought the Russian Mob down on her and her kids because he was having a goddamn midlife crisis.

The bus incident pissed me off, too. I wanted both the driver and the "young damsel in distress" (sigh) to tell him, "Wow, mister! You just made that situation a LOT MORE DANGEROUS. I was just gonna get off the bus in a populated area, but thanks for starting a knife-flashing death battle six inches from me. Good thing it never dawned on them to take me as a hostage!"

But, I mean, it's a fantasy. I just... I enjoyed it in a shameful greasy way, I guess. And at least we know from the first five minutes that the kitten in the film comes through just fine, even gets a little tuna snack. :)

But it's not a fantasy predicated on things I like or respect very much, and I spent the whole film feeling like I was expected to.

while i am never proud of my homicidal ideations, exactly, please let me assure you that if i *were* given a locked private room, a bowling ball, a good set of boltcutters, and a bound captive GOP strategist, i think i could give you results that were not just good for society but pleasingly artful on their own merits

i have a lot of good ideas about composition, perspective, and blood spatter geometry that i'd really love to play with

i am having the most severe allergic reaction to our culture, "the discourse," and people in general today

i'd need about a four month vacation off-planet among a hedonistic society of aliens who have never even heard of "League of Legends" or "QAnon" or "30-50 feral hogs" just to get back to baseline, defined here as "fantasizing for less than 120 minutes a day about pushing people into traffic"

i feel like the number of animated sitcom episodes i've watched emotionlessly in the last month should qualify me for a death certificate all by itself

is it possible to have just a little touch of cotard's delusion

i feel like i perished somewhere around 2015

granted new orleans is not a half bad afterlife, i did not even expect heaven to have this good of a seafood scene

but i still miss feeling alive and i wish i could at least be one of those ghosts that people actually perceive

instead of just looking right through me and forgetting me altogether when i'm not actively rattling my chains

there's that one weird touched dragon who can still see me but it's all getting to be a bit beetlejuice for my tastes

@arilin I signed up this morning and was pretty happy to see all their security-fix posts. I have a hopeful feeling that they're coming to this from a good practical place, at least.

Is anybody else on Pillowfort? Any opinions? I think I'm gonna wait to share my username over there until I have at least one non-whiny non-depressive post, but I do at least like the site so far.