-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing
Joined Apr 2017
fantasies, identity-loss, transformation, sui mention
This was mostly the form in which i fantasized regularly about “death” back during my traumatic period. I fantasized about that process of forgetting my parents, my family, my friends. Everyone that had abandoned me and everyone that had hurt me. Some spiritual, ritual experience of my identity and everything that i was… fading away. All that pain…
And to just open my eyes again, refreshed. Right. With no memory of it ever being wrong.
fantasies, identity-loss, transformation
I have fantasies about getting the opportunity to go Home, and to be Myself finally, in body and soul. However, in such scenarios, becoming myself in mind involves… forgetting.
Forgetting that i was ever human
Forgetting all about this life, it’s details… to be remade, a fresh slate. Untainted by abuse, trauma… but also forgetting the good things
fantasies, identity-loss, transformation
There are a few fantasies i have in which i am admittedly… embarrassed of and reluctant to talk about a lot of times. A lot of these revolve around death, or reminiscent/equivalence of.
One of these is the topic of identity loss that sometimes comes with hypnotic/transformation scenarios. The concept that… sure, you might get what you want but you will forget that you ever wanted it.
plush blob
plob.
gender, lewd, inflation kink
Ve's still such a twinky fem boy, even when the thumping of that bass gives ver huge boy boobs bouncing with the beat~
and no one objects to hearing vis moans of ecstasy amidst that big drop, or the loud BANG of that stretchy hide separating dramatically.
By the transition to the next song, ve is back, uploaded and instantiated again out on the dancefloor, oh-so giddy to burst
gender, lewd, inflation kink
current gender: twinky pooltoy boi vloe with a crop top showing vis belly valve and a flagged tail flaunting those lusciously large rumpcheeks and thick tail.
Ve's at a kinky club wearing a unique plug in vis tailend that analyzes the beat and internal pressure and sends small puffs of air into ver along with the bass n.n'
ve isn't afraid to let others use vis cunt in the middle of the dancefloor either. Ve IS, after all, the club's pleasuretoy poolboi~
-> @oneironott@vulpine.club
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cannabis, call for furry artists
are you a furry artist?
do you want to draw and design cover art for my home-bred strains of cannabis?
I'd like to talk to you. 💜
mh(-), brains
despite feeling improved, I have little to no capacity to actually hold a conversation or say correct words today. It has been bad, but today is possibly the worst I can remember such things being.
I can hardly think and have exhausted myself doing just that because I Needed To, and now I'm just so burnt out, to the point of paranoia and anxiety loops.
Being Nice To Myself doesn't mean I have to be all smiles about this brain weather. UGH.
mh, reflections (+)
So, in reflection I am almost in awe of the fact that I had fun and had frisky, positive experienced AND bumps of large dysphoria and depression that DIDN'T ruin my whole evening.
mh, reflections (+)
I went away from last night with the loose feeling like things went bad, even though I had fun. That in itself has become an ingrained feeling due to my previous and shifting understanding about what it is to "be healing" or "healed".
The goal isn't and shouldn't be "can deal with emotions/mental states like a neurotypical person and get through the evening without bumps"
It's "Can have bumps while accepting that I am neurodiverse and still have a fun, good time."
-> @oneironott@vulpine.club
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Neptunian meditation
You are a drop in the ocean
Surrounded by and mixing with all the other drops. Filling the world, touching its extents, spreading life.
You are a drop in the ocean
Able to be seen, to be held, to go through all the journeys and changes that the whole ocean itself is too big for.
You are a drop in the ocean
Mingling with all the other drops, sharing what you've found and tasting what they've brought. The ocean is richer, and deeper, because of you.
You are a drop in the ocean.
Existing is exhausting and i want out
Man, I’m so tired of this planet and this era and *gesticulates everywhere* living
lewd mention, mh(-)
“Depression at the Orgy” is my ‘Panic At The Disco’ industrial cover band
mh(- - -)
Fittingly, despite all my prep to make it to tonight’s ritual, one instance of my brain misparsing the time has rendered me unable to go.
Apparently such ritual involves the topic of Healing, which is so immensely fitting that i fail to make it like i’ve failed to make enough progress in my healing to even do basic things like “make it here on time”
mh(-)
Mood crash… feel…… heavy
-> @oneironott@vulpine.club
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@Thaminga toy so hard motherfuckers wanna own me
tattoo
I’m overwhelmed and amazed at this. It’s so beautiful and looking at my paw and seeing that feels so, so good. Where i’m from… who i am… what i am… 💙
So many thanks to @tastymochafox, who made this possible for me, and who i got matching ones with ^.^
*squeak!!*
-> @oneironott@vulpine.club
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⚪ Gay
⚪ Straight
⚪ Bi
🔘 
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing
Joined Apr 2017
