Raspberry Foxy @Raspberryfloof@awoo.space

And, if I'm being honest ... even thinking about having a job at all makes me really nervous, because I worry I will be unhappy while I'm doing it, and if I am not happy in my job I usually can't focus, I get anxious, and I stop being able to work well...

But ... I haven't been able to work on things without a job, either...

And I do need money so I can pay loan bills and medical bills and eat...

;~;

I wish I could just work from home, or part time, doing programming or computer repair or something that didn't make me impossibly anxious...

Though, I don't even know if I can handle that. Being around people at all makes me really, really uncomfortable...

I was reading through a contract for a local temp agency today, and just reading all the sections regarding all the employment restrictions and rights I would have to sign away while working for them made me really, really nervous and anxious...

I didn't necessarily feel like I had any choice but to sign? :S They are a fairly large temp agency here in Las Vegas, and they recruit for a fairly large number of jobs...

Even though I don't really talk about it much... I kind of feel isolated from most trans-inclusive spaces? like I don't fit into them somehow, or I'm not "sufficiently" trans (even though I know that sounds dumb) because I usually describe myself being female first and trans second...

I don't think I've ever been in a space alongside so many other loving, caring trans people... I don't feel quite so alone while I'm here ;ω;

Thank you so much, everybody... 💖

Interview soon... :S I'm still really anxious, and I hope things don't go too wrong...