Roady @Roady_Dragonfae@awoo.space

I cannot stress enough the importance of understanding neurotransmitters. The psyche is fragile, and one wrong move can change your personality so much that you aren't you anymore. It's fucking scary.

For all of my journeying needs. Seven pockets for every essential.
From a weed pipe to divination stones to miniature smudges. Serves as a good tether when venturing to other realms.

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@Jssra I'll keep that noted. Thank you.

Since the time I was drugged, I feel like there's an opportunistic entity that creeps in from the back of my mind. Whenever my dopamine levels are low, I'm always fighting with it for space in my head.

With alcohol and tobacco gone, sugar and caffeine keep it quiet. If withdrawing from both will make it wake up in full force, I'd rather isolate myself in the woods for a fortnight so I can personally exorcise this demon for good.

@KawaSeadrake I have to do just that... By the end of this week I started to notice a rapid change in my mood. Finally, over the last two days, I noticed my speech was less articulate and I was slowly losing who I was...

I can't stop crying right now. Because I felt like I was turning back into that monster from the comedown when I was dosed with meth last year... I have to change my tactics amd go slow, because this is a very thin line I'm walking on.

I need to taper off of sugar instead of going cold turkey. The crash has turned me into a broken down, paranoid mess that can't handle anything. I haven't felt so low, unaware, and unconscious since the time I was drugged a year ago.

New plan. Keep carbs, and just avoid refined sugar.

I have to admit that it's not just one thing that's wrong with me. It's a multitude of shit with a cumulative effect.

I need to be more mindful of the fact that after emotionally intense situations, like going up against a bunch of right wing crazies or a torrent of cops, I just need to be alone and cry it all out.

Once that negative energy latches on, I can't think straight, I can't articulate my speech, and it throws me so far out of alignment that I don't feel at all like myself.

I love the sight of concrete that has a patina of moss, algae, and ivy. The natural decay of human structures is very appealing in that regard.

@fluffy@dragon.style @fluffy@queer.party I typically use my dragon.style account for longer, more in depth posts. Given the character limit is an insane 7777.

Here's my recipe for my improvised paleo chicken soup.

2 rotisserie chickens
1lb chicken feet
Chopped carrots, celery, and (rinsed)leek
Cashews
Oregano and rosemary
Coconut aminos and salt to taste

1.Separate the meat and boil the bones+chicken feet with rosemary and oregano until the broth becomes a dense liquid gold.

2. Strain and add meat, celery, carrots, leeks, and cashews.

3. Continue boiling until cashews soften. Add coconut aminos and salt to taste.

I'm so glad I decided to change up my soup's mirepoix and use leek instead of white onions.

Am I the only one who's considered using color coded fidget spinners for clearing out chakras? I use a green one and it unintentionally fanned out a blockage in my heart. xD

Don't simmer the bones. Boil them. The fat and collagen will emulsify into a thick and rich broth similar to what's found in tonkotsu ramen.

Wait... It's been two weeks since I last smoked a bowl... What the hell's wrong with me?

Quitting sugar is weird. Throughout the day I'm tired, foggy, and paranoid. When I'm ready to go to sleep, I'm tossing and turning for hours with no hope of catching a wink.

Oh the things I go through to clear out my system. Bringing me to the brink of insanity. But it's all gonna be worth it.

@literorrery Jeez! That sounds like a nightmare. I'm currently mired in the foggy, delusional, and hellish state of sugar withdrawal after changing my diet to accommodate a new sedentary job.

I really need to do a double take on my posts before hitting the button... My ginormous thumbs keep hitting "b" or "v" instead of the space bar. As well as other mistypes from adjacent keys.

I had an intense dream last night that involved a 14 year old getting sucked out of a plane's emergency exit, adriving at a really dingy part of Hong Kong and winding up stuck in a crumbling building.... Still trying to figure out what it all means.

@Oneironott No reason to feel guilty. Since the start of thisbyear we've all been struggling in one form or another. We gotta be there for each other now more than ever.