🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime @kelseyhusky@awoo.space

#TMITuesday time! Open for questions about huskybots, me, or anything else you want to know! Please ask me stuff so I am distracted from how cold my building is.

Sarah Benthos is sick of the cold and wet. She desires sun, and warmth, and a cute girl to rub suntan lotion all over her smooth body.

@jakebe That is a really horrible customer. I'm sorry you had to end your day on that crappy note.

Lots of unwelcome and unwanted thought processes today. I sometimes joke about having not thrown myself out of a window yet, but today is one of the few days it doesn't feel like a joke.

I've had rough and emotionally uncomfortable weekends seemingly for the whole month of November and December isn't looking much better.

I'm just so tired and lost and confused all the time. About everything. And as supportive as everyone i know is, I never can bring myself to talk about it. with anyone. Cause my useless brain has it hardwired in firmware that my problems aren't worth telling anyone else and that if I do ever unleash all the hazardous emo-waste in my circuits, everyone will realize how hopelessly useless and unloveable I am and will abandon me, and then I'll actually be alone instead of just feeling like I'm alone all the time.

This is not on anyone here. Its just me stuck in my own thoughts. Again. I've started bringing a cot with me, cause I spend a lot of time here.

It was sunny downtown when I went on lunch. Didn't know what to do with it cause i've been such a fucking wreck all morning. But the warmth was nice, especially since its usually unlikably cold in all my buildings.

Feeling very broken and fragile today. Can't afford to be either. Ever. Don't like it, don't want it.

Feel like I'm minutes away from crying every day.

@makyo *soft whirrs* Boop!

@Talchyr@yiff.life Not having to buy new pants?

*travels to a distant, un-inhabited, lifeless system with a dying star.*

*Burns into low-corona orbit around the star.*

*Yells with all her giant robot strength, dumping all available power into the scream of frustration and exhaustion and uncertainty and anxiety*

*causes star to go nova*

*stays in positing letting the stellar detonation recharge her for the flight home*

*feels a little bit better*

*a little bit*

@Leucrotta Well, cause I know I didn't. And I just told you I didn't. I found it on an imgur post.

New word I found last night that I want to steal: Fucktangular (adj) Something that is complicated in messy and uncomfortable ways. see also: Fucktangle (n), Fucktangling (v) Fucktangulary (adv)

Each person swallows 28 spiders before they die. If you've only swallowed 3 so far, 25 show up before you die.

Hospitals make sure only non-toxic species live in the building. Families bring spiders to hospice to honor last wishes. The number of spiders that show up is taken as a sign of how open your heart and mind were in life, the lower, the better.

Just before you pass, you feel a tickle in the back of your throat, and a single spider crawls out of your mouth, sits on your lap, looks right into your eyes and says:

@Motodrachen I think all the gear that I'm planning on having inside the fort and attached to the frame would be too much for carboard to handle, but having it for the fabric to attach to isn't a bad idea!

Switching from metal frame to PVC pipe for cost and weight savings. Still planning on using black fabric for the walls and ceiling.

Planned feature list: Fiber optic star field in the ceiling, mounting points for surround sound system, monitor stands for dual-triple monitor setup, wide mousepad, mount points for joystick setup, shallow depth desk so I don't make a mess on the surface, under desk mounting for accessories and hardware, cable pass-throughs for usb hubs, environment controls inside. headroom for my chair. footrest panel.

Next steps: Architectural sketches!

Oh! I've been at my job for five months. No wonder I've been kinda done with it. Felt this way at my last few long-term jobs too.

I'm tired, I'm falling behind, and I don't have my mawr around to keep me in check. This is going to be a very unenjoyable week. But i'll get through it like I always do.

Somehow. With a lot of inertia. Sometimes I feel like a true Newtonian object. The only reason I'm still moving is cause i've been moving.

@ElectricKeet I've done nothing but work with cellphones this past month. Maybe I could take a look for you this week?

So many stories to write, so little time, so little confidence, so very, very tired of being and adult and being responsible.

I.. I think I might've pinged too deep. I think I woke up something in the depths.

A voice is answering back. A voice with lots of teeth.

"The name's Benthos. Sarah Benthos. We'll be speaking again later. When I feel like it"

@tahajin CUTIE!