Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

@Balinares I think mostly I just needed to say all that above to ward off that paranoid self-hatey inner voice of "OK, it's gotten real quiet. I'll bet everybody's gotten sick of me and has realized I'm a total irredeemable jerk. Might as well do everybody a favor, by detaching myself and getting to work on the NOLA stage of my life, instead of trying to force something nobody else seems to want."

When the truth is probably everyone else is just stupid busy like I am. 😺​

@Balinares As for the others... sounds lovely, and the sentiment's appreciated. Just, if I come up in conversation, mention that I miss 'em. That's another problem -- everybody's so scattered these days, I've even lost track of who I've lost track of. :|

Thanks. Even just having _anybody_, especially you, reply to and bother to care... that's a big comfort. *hugs tight*

I just can't believe how it all went so wrong so fast. I'm still reeling pretty badly.

@Balinares To whom? Kristy and Jessie, not really. I've at least got an "inside contact" there to give me status updates. And I've finally come to terms with the fact that the best thing for them is going to be just leaving them be.

I've already resigned myself that that's probably going to be forever; it would be nice to learn differently someday, but I've sworn off trying to force it. It'd be neat if something could happen there... but I'm fairly certain it can't. :|

@LeDiva *picks you up by scruff; deposits you on her back; defends you from predators* <3

It's busy times, so I don't know if I really *could* do a lot of socializing anyhow. But I admit, I do really miss the big-group stuff.

I've avoided the rituals partly to give K and O a little space, and partly 'cause... honestly, the Celtic ritual calendar has never really spoken to me? But I'm super-glad they're happening.

Anyhow, dunno. Been torn between being bolder & Sparing You The Burden Of My Stripey Boorishness? 🐯​

But let's get sushi sometime, or something?

I guess I just wanted to say that if I've been talking like I'm Just Done With Seattle Folks... I guess it's more of a warding behavior than something I actually *want*. Like, it's a way of preparing myself for something I really fear is true.

I still like and miss all of you Seattle people. Cripes, I still like Orrery and Keet-- that's why I'm staying the fuck AWAY from them, because we obviously need a few years apart, at the very least, to cool things down.

Meanwhile, I've been getting that awful feeling again, that I've pretty much drifted out of the lives of most of the locals, and it's basically my fault.

It is, really. I know I definitely withdrew good and hard after the fight with Keet and Orrery. I walked away from a lot of community spaces, like the Slack and the Eyrie rituals. And I don't really feel like there's a non-awkward way back into them.

This is all normal adult stuff, and really, things are still going pretty good. Peg's still got that awesome job lead, my position at work seems REAL solid, and what I'm earning will probably carry me a lot further in NOLA than it does in Seattle. And my faith that Parallax has Non-Zero Commercial Potential is ever increasing (especially after Peg's last batch of Giant Space Woofer roughs =^____^= <3 <3 <3 ).

It's just... blargh. Cat. Wanna just cat.

So basically, by working an extra ten hours a week, I'm going to be making maybe three hours a week worth more.

It's fine. Boss needs me, love the work, needed to up my stamina. It's fine. I keep reminding myself it's fine, and it actually kinda is.

But... ever have a series of crises, and afterwards, your inner control panel's warning lights are ALL blinking, and you've lost track of which alerts are outdated and which aren't? :worried_wide_eyes:​

Well, that was a little taste of Kafka.

Got a note last night from WA Health that they needed some tax documentation... in two weeks... or my policy was canceled.

Tried logging into my work's payroll site, with what I thought was my most recent password... and got locked out for too many attempts.

Still locked out, but managed to get the insurance worked out... after an hour on the phone... and being bumped to a non-free healthplan for the first time.

@LeDiva RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR
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@Aradia There is NO FORCE ON EARTH with the moral authority to stop you, my dear. <3

That sense of intense relief you get when you haven't looked at http://www.dailycoyote.net in a long time, and you're totally braced when you load the page, because 10 years is a long-ass time in dogmonster years...

...and Charlie is still lookin' hale, snaggly, and debonair as all fuck. All is at least well with some small part of your old universe. <3

meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow

Well, that was the most unequivocal "Big No" I've ever gotten out of Dawn Jr. (i.e. the Lo Scarabeo edition of @anthracite's deck).

Lots of Major Arcana, a disquieting number of Voids, and... boy, that 5 of Swords shows up a lot when I'm asking about certain people/places/events.

Honestly, it's kind of what I was hoping she'd say. This Fool is gonna board that Chariot I've been offered, and get the fuck out of town before the Judgment hammer falls. Not much left here after the blast.

@Leucrotta Yeah, I've got a couple of hang-ups in that area myself, so I sympathize a lot. *hug*

@Xinjinmeng@mastodon.social Peg's got digital copies of the Phil Foglio revival! We had a pretty good time paging through it a couple years ago.

I'm not crying tears of unholy fire. YOU'RE crying tears of unholy fire! (cw: Satanic; adorable)

https://twitter.com/rebeccarmix/status/1061762341979766784

@starkatt I've never been able to pronounce any of those throaty consonants very well! This is also why I make for a bad raccoon. =n.n;=

@starkatt I mean, there's a limited set of options! Run through the list and pick one ya like. :D

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ch_(digraph)

#ConlangEnabler