The Technicolor Out Of Space @neonNeptunian@awoo.space

@starkatt ...And the other half are scientific naming for various marine life. :B

(this is the Enûma Eliš case, but also does things to my head, so you get two):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_eSBEzzo7s

@starkatt Also, because i'm me, I gotta cite the ABZU soundtrack. The way it's divided up is frustrating to me because of how it's several moments tied to one track (and the music is very much tied to individual moments), but... a lot of it chokes me up.

(also, half of the track titles are an obscure reference to a Babylonian water-based creation myth. <3 )

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_eMhM0DIJi8

@starkatt based on previous submissions that hit some good marks, this one mobile game called PinOut might be up your alley: It's Very Synthwave.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vesRmD0iulo&i

@indi It's a thing that's pretty darn impressive in my book, for what it's worth. You're a heckin' good plush, and that's commendable.

(heck, i'd write a recommendation letter for ya. :B )

💜 *squeezeglow!*

All of you are such wonderful folk. It's nice to see you all talking on here. 💜

A favor, if you would--

take a moment sometime today and give yourself a hug.

If you need a reason, because I'd like to give you one.

@Doephin I was supposed to be here ~3 weeks prior to the transplant, for prep-work. Also, a family wedding on the 1st.

Best guess we had was end of july, but.

A comment made by an aunt a few days back still rings in my mind: 'sometimes we need to be okay with letting go'.

it feels like this year has been so much letting go. erosion. making do with less. how much more will be enough?

more waiting. just...waiting.
i have food and shelter and safety- there's that at least.

Still no date set on transplant. New medications for sibling to try, requiring a few days of hospital stay just in case. More waiting.

I don't know when this will end.
And even if/when it does, it feels like there'll be just...more hurt awaiting. Any thoughts of making plans in my head get cut off by screaming of the more likely scenario of their failure.

Five of Cups, but there's no bridge, no way past; the horizon is blotted out.

odds of BM happening at 15%.

@thefishcrow It is far too late and I should be asleep though there's nothing to be up in the morning for.

If I may?

I also feel necessary to follow this up by saying thank you to friends who have already been reaching out. There's a lot of you.

Thank you, all of you, for caring, even if it doesn't really break the grey sometimes.

I'm sorry I struggle with it so much. I'm trying.

Home in Virginia.

Spent the weekend down in Williamsburg for a cousin's wedding, and to clean up my late grandfather's apartment some. (The former was Heavily Christian, which just...me and their God have some issues.)

Tbh, kind of just here. For a while. Not much to do, and anhedonia kind of smearing my mindscape. Still no idea of when the transplant will be.

kind of just on ⏸ until then.

@indi CASE IN HECKING POINT THE INDI RULZ OK NOTE ON MY DOOR

(aaaaaaaaa)

important update:

finished playing Night in the Woods with @indi last night and HOLY FUCK MILLENIAL FEELINGS

but more importantly said Indi is in fact actually the Gregg to my Angus and that's super good?

I hope your world treats you kindly this evening, dear lights. <3