The Technicolor Out Of Space @neonNeptunian@awoo.space

@Fuego @TipsyTentacle@witches.town

I'm familiar with Saint Pepsi already, though not any of their albums! (and, yup, heckin' good there too)

I wasn't sure of the actual genre classification, though. And it's good.

They're all good dogs, angela :3

Hey, awoo'ers. G'morning.

I know i've been kind of a mess these past couple days, but I think i'm through the nadir. i'mma be doing my best to try that whole...self-care thing. It's...not easy for me. But I promise i'll try.

You should find reason to care and love for yourself today, okay?

Because you're absolutely worth it, too. We all are.

Hug. 💜

@Fuego @TipsyTentacle@witches.town

(okay i have a name for a genre that i am All For, now, thanks)

(also heck me that is reallygooood)

...oh i *did* pack my poi

i could Finally Get Competent at That

thats a good something to work on.

@vahnj For what it's worth, I think you're doing a good job out here. thanks for all the work you're doin'.

Hugs available on tap. 💜

May today grant you kindness, comfort, joy,

and cessation of undue suffering.

You, by right of possessing life and sentience, deserve all these.

💜

@kauko i know this pain well. sendin' lots of hug. lots and lots and lots. *squeeze*

i hope you dream of wonders this evening.

i hope that dream grants you solace and joy and wonder

and all the kindnesses you are owed

and all the love i promise you are worthy of.

You are okay. You deserve to be okay.
Your self-care is okay.

I hope you can find cause for happiness, today.

💜

(please do not replicate the otter, there are some very not good personality glitches in there that would be preferred not to be seen in others.

we are aware of these, and are working on rectifying them. Thank you for your care and your time.

-mgmt)

@mawr @Ulfra_Wolfe@witches.town

I can vent and lament all I want, but...it...doesn't help me through it, tbh. the hurt's still there, it still festers. I still don't have any actions I can take. i'm still stuck waiting.

so i don't.

thank you, though.

@Ulfra_Wolfe@witches.town @mawr

TBH, I dont feel ok showing my hurt anymore.

somewhere along the way my head internalized the idea of 'only one person can be in the I Am Hurting node at a time'; if *anyone* else is I *will* prioritize them 100% of the time.

Also my support network being on the other end of the country. Also it..not..really helping actually stop the hurt. etc, etc.

i have a therapist now tho, and we'll be talking by phone on Monday, so there's that at least.

@Doephin At least, yes. Possibly longer, depending on if they see him as 'ready' after that 30 days or say he needs more treatment.

That's why i'm calling it quits on Burning Man andor eclipse-watching plans now; they clearly aren't happening, no matter how badly I hope otherwise.

I'm sorry i haven't been able to help.

i see your hurt. all of you.
i'm sorry i can't do much to staunch it.

i'm sorry i can't even help myself, right now.

i'm just sorry.

i should be quiet more.

So the medication brother started is the actual chemotherapy meds.

It's a 30-day dose. After that, I guess they'll decide from there if he needs more or to move ahead with transplant.

I'm here until then.

I give up on BM. and the eclipse. They're clearly not happening.

friends and family've said 'focus on getting there next year', and i just can't.

i can't plan because as far as i can tell next year will be worse. either i won't have money or time or both. likely both.

Hey, you.

It's the weekend. I hope you can find some time to relax, to find happiness. To rest. To remember you are loved. 💜

@literorrery yaaaaaay buni. 💜 💜 💜