Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

@hummingrain FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YEAH

@Leucrotta That means a lot to me given some of our mutual acquaintances. And FTR, I am 100% cool with that. I don't necessarily think they're bad people-- we just all triggered abject failure states in each other at the same time. 💔​

@kelseyhusky I think you and mawr are pretty awesome too! Sorry I didn't get to see y'all again on the way out but oh my god bothell. :D

@Phorm I don't regret a moment that I've known you. Dammit. <3

@kobi_lacroix Oh MAN have I had these feels over the last year. We will have an epic bitch session on Telegram one of these days. n.n

yay

https://dstears.tumblr.com/post/184622583941/fluttershys-probably-the-only-one-who-can-get

(though tbh the caption is untrue -- mars has some very serious diplomatic issues with equestria over their shameful treatment of dragons -- i never quite forgave flutters for the dragonshy incident =>________<= #PonyGettinMauliesYay)

Heh heh. I swore SO MUCH today. 😺​

@Leucrotta Yeah, tbh that was a fucking NIGHTMARE. I still love a lot of people on the spectrum, but... the way things went with Kristy kinda lead me to believe "ADD manic-depressive neurotype" and "high functioning but fully autistic" are NOT a good basis for a stable friendship.

And I blame myself, no matter what Kristy chooses to believe about my opinions of what happened, for quite a large part of that mismatch. I should really have seen the signs coming and.. well, I did fucking TRY to apologize to her and got fired upon. *shrug* Never again. :| And I'm gonna be REAL skittish about ever befriending someone with similar social habits again.

(And yet, once again I am a total fucking hypocrite since I am shy AF and have probably ghosted people for months that I STILL HAVE NOT REALIZED actually ever wanted to see me in the first place.

Um... that's QUITE A LOT of you reading this toot, actually. If I didn't say goodbye when I left Seattle... it's probably because I assumed we weren't close enough and I'd just be bugging you. :| <3 )

@kobi_lacroix Actually kinda yeah, but alas Peg has sworn we will never again room with anybody she's not actively fucking. We got quite a history. ;>

@Verdigris I mean, we could write VOLUMES of good sociology about how we fucked up. :)

And while I am DEFINITELY partly responsible for that... yeah, I feel like there was a certain anarchistic chill-vibe that I tried to bring to the whole thing that people just kinda... forgot about. *sigh* (Is it OK if I blame Trump for this, too? :) I saw some really good people turn really cold and cruel out of... somewhat understandable paranoia, militancy, and impatience.)

We did NOT have good conflict resolution at all, and my only consolation is that basically all the 1960s counterculture groups I worshipped in my adolescence more or less fucked it up the same way. I could dish for hours about it. :D I just can't believe I was arrogant enough once upon a time to think we were doing much better...

And I had forgotten about Dunbar's number. That's... yeah. That's very insightful. And highly applicable. *sad nod* Honestly... this just did not do well as an RL community. We were one of those bands who were always far far better in the studio than we were live, if you know what i mean. :D

@JulieSqveakaroo @001zlnv *resumes sledgehammering*

WE LIVED :D

And we have all our stuff moved from the Amtrak to our place.

And yet again, I want to take a moment to recommend Amtrak Express for cross-country shipping. This is three out of three cities where the staff has been EXTREMELY nice to us. They brought the pallets right out to the van, would NOT let us refuse help with loading them, and were extremely understanding about our general confusion and exhaustion.

Speaking of which, even if you take my penchant for exaggeration into account, this is literally the most exhausted I've been since I was in 11th grade marching band. I'm so happy we got the rental van in a day early and can just DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING for a couple days.

Pretty happy, though. Am settled, get to nap for like 36 hours, gonna get some food delivered, feel VERY accomplished for finally making it back to the Avis rental without a map...

Oh, and also, the thing I was upset about last night? A friend basically stabbed me in the back over something I'm not even involved in, after I pled with them that it was really gonna hurt me if they went through with it.

And apparently they made a rather Hollywoodish non-apology via a DM to Peg (dammit, she is NOT involved in this, leave her alone >_< ) after I blocked them.

So I get to spend some time tonight deciding whether to ignore them or set them on fire, because forgiveness is OFF the table. They were already basically on probation. My Tiger Nature looks very much forward to dealing with this fuckwit who jumped into my cage right at feeding time AND ignored the friendly warning rawrs. =^_______^=

Life is good. Body hurts bad. I can deal with this contrast, kinda even digging it. Feels like TIGER POWER. :D

@emanate Okay, I'm forced to admit that one's pretty good. :D

@001zlnv @anthracite No, I'm saving the Young Ones finale for when we LEAVE New Orleans. :)

For those of you who read @anthracite's account, yeah, I had quite a driving adventure today but I'm back home with Peg, we have 3/4ths of our stuff, we're in good low-stress moods again, and nobody got devoured or nothin', though there is a local brunch place whose next interaction with me could be... awkward.

It's... it's a long story. n.n;

@001zlnv @anthracite I lived! :D

@anthracite For those of you playing the home game, I'm okay and we are about to go get our last load of stuff. I had to do some SERIOUS unexpected adulting and I'm pretty stresed out, but Anthy and I are gettin' along fine and back to having a reasonable good time. All is forgiven! =^_____^=

@kobi_lacroix It's been SO NICE so far to get away from that in NOLA.

@Balinares *hugs* No that's pretty good right there. <3

@kobi_lacroix I'm blushing, so... yeah. *hug* Thank you so much. I like you too, especially your pol takes lately. :)